I fucking hate birthdays. My girlfriend tells me, "You should celebrate the day you came into life" and yet I can't help but think of it as an extremely bittersweet.

Dad: Hey. Call me when you have a chance. I'm worried about you ( Read more... )

The first time I heard the slowly strummed chord of Original Air-Blue-Gown tonight over the crackling hiss of John's tape recorder, I was so sure there was the howling of a ghost in the background. So sure he had captured some sort of EPV with this simple piece of machinery. I listened over and over to confirm this curious supposition. Only when ( Read more... )

I don't understand how someone could be so stoic and casual while hurting another person so deeply. It seems to be a pattern in relationships. Man hurts woman, woman hurts man. Everyone just seems to do it mindlessly and without any regard for the other's feelings. No wonder so many men will curse every woman alive and vice-versa. I can't ( Read more... )

Kay tastes like beer.
Sheila tastes like Jager.
Loneliness tastes like whiskey.

And I just get a drunken call from my mom saying she has Crohn's Disease.

I haven't gone outside in 10 days except to go to the supermarket or to go to two interviews. I've showered twice purely because of the interviews. I haven't put on deodorant in two weeks. I haven't been drinking but I still wake up shaking and feeling hungover. I've just been sitting up reading stories from the Old Testament-Samson and Delilah ( Read more... )

"Matt, I am on my way home. I need to stop drinking. I am going into an intensive program and will not be around for awhile. I mean not to hurt you, but I need to focus on me and getting my life together.... -Kay ( Read more... )

Today ( Read more... )

I've been writing in this god forsaken livejournal for nearly 6 years.