i want to see myself famous for doing good in the world, creating peace and love. helping those less fortunate than me. and helping those mroe fortunate than me. writing a life changing book, or creating a movie or travelling the world with the intent to fix it.

"its the fact that someone cared that wasnt you."

my mom has told me im one before
cause i fail all my classes and im in alternate
i cant keep anything good that i have going for longer than a few months
i freak out over nothing
i have massive panic attacks
i cant get the love i apparently deserve
and i want to die lots of the time.

im pretty sure if this one fails im not having any more. too hard on me. i cant stand being away from him. and it sucks cause the incident really hurt my trust for him. and i now dont trust him around certain people. its so stupid. i wish it could be back to normal... oh well. and yeah, im way too dependant on him too. we spent 3 weeks STRAIGHT ( Read more... )

i hate everyone. with the exception of a few people. but i mostly hate horny men who think women are only good for sex and the likings. its fucking stupid and you should feel ashamed for feeling that way. fucking assholes i want every single one of you to fucking die. a brutal painful torturous death.

messed up. i dont understand whats going on.
i want to die.
or run away forever.
never come back to this place.

im at my new house now. alone ( Read more... )

sometimes i feel like being a giant two timing bitch ( Read more... )

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i really wish i knew how to fix my feelings. theyre so terrible. im so hurt, and broken. and it feels like im never gonna get fixed. i probably sound extremely emo. but its true i guess. i dont know why ive gotten so depressed about it. ive talked to a few people and none of them think im over reacting or anyhing, they all think i have every right ( Read more... )