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Sailor Moon Crystal: Act 1 impressions
I just watched Sailor Moon Crystal! NicoNico was the only website a Brit could watch it on officially and I'm thankful to them for actually allowing a worldwide service! Cruncyroll, Hulu and Neon Ally didn't allow anyone from Britain to view their videos so NicoNico was awesome for delivering where they failed ( Read more... ) -
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Tomorrow is my last training day and I'll be able to breathe again after it. The work is easy for me, I'm the star pupil in my class and my tutor loves me, lol. What's stifling is all the interaction which leaves me exhausted by the end of the day! x___x Anyway, apparently all my work is very thorough. It's natural for me to elaborate and analyze ( Read more... ) -
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So, I was in no state to attend training today. All of yesterday's bad thoughts led to another tear-filled sleepless night that resulted in a panic attack this morning. I'm feeling better now, if only just a little breathless at times. My dad was really supportive. My mum had already left for work by the time I left my room, so she doesn't know. My ( Read more... ) -
the portrait of self-loathing
I think I'm seriously ready to try some new meds. My mood is pretty bad at the moment (randomly bursting into tears is NOT fun) and my happy pills don't seem to be helping much. I'm irritable the more I try to socialize. I feel less and less like I fit in. I'm putting on performances again and it's getting so tiring ( Read more... ) -
I could give up right about now
My anxiety is getting worse and I feel like I'm becoming more reclusive ( Read more... ) -
For shame
Malayalam films piss me off so much sometimes. Women spend all their time crying in them. I saw a film today that ONLY showed women when they were crying. There was literally no other point of having them there. I've reached the conclusion that Indian men especially love watching women crying like children. It makes them feel big and powerful ( Read more... ) -
Aaaaaaand there it goes...
Two entries ago I boasted about an occurrence that boosted my self-esteem. Well, that temporary burst of renewed self-esteem fizzled out just yesterday. Yesterday was absolutely shit and I wish I could go back in time and just redo EVERYTHING. My psych evaluation left me feeling worse than I had been in a while, and I'm pretty sure my anxiety in ( Read more... ) -
FFXIII:LR and FFX HD
I've been playing 'Lightning Returns; and I've almost finished it. My verdict at this point? It's nothing special and FFXIII-2 was better. In fact, this will probably be the most forgettable FF game I've played to date and I actually like Lightning and the other FFXIII characters ( Read more... ) -
Temporary high?
A lot has happened lately and I feel like I've changed in a relatively short amount of time. I'm closer to my parents than ever but I've mellowed out a bit more. Considering what my therapist told me the last time I saw her, this may not be such a great thing. Just because I feel better right now it doesn't mean it's not making things worse for me ( Read more... )