i feel like a jackass who takes everybody in his life for granted.

i feel like a jackass for what i just wrote.

i don't know why.

today is not a good day =(

So I'm pretty sure that Julie A doesn't like me at all. She pretty much hates me. Pretty much wonderful. 'Cause it's all my fucking fault that she can't talk on the phone past 10, and I'm never free before then. I would seriously call her at any moment if it meant us staying friends, but that only gets her in trouble, so fuck that. But no, it' ( Read more... )

today was a wonderful day.

beth, you did excellent today. i'm very proud of you.

I haven't had a good update in a while ( Read more... )

me and leah are back together. i know a lot of people advised that would be a bad idea.... and some ppl might even be mad at me... but i love her too much not to give it one last shot ( Read more... )

i always have hated this particular month of the year.

all those things that haunt me about myself... all of them are back. i'm nothing. i do nothing right. that demon on my shoulder keeps whispering into my ear, and i'm buying into all of it.

you're wrong you're wrong you're wrong you're wrong you're wrong you're wrongthing is, there's no ( Read more... )

I've gotten a lot of random phone calls from people just wondering if I'm ok. I never realized what awesome friends I have. Thank you so much. I'm sorry I took you all for granted. :) You're good people.

Me and Leah broke up, and now that I've seen everything, I don't think we will be getting back together.

I miss Ocean City. It was Heaven on earth. It was seriously the coolest place in the world. I'm so glad that Leah's family was awesome enough to take me ( Read more... )

So i'm home from Ocean City. It was seriously the most amazing time of my life. I've never had a better few days. Lindsey was awesome, and she's like a sister to me now after a week with her... and everything with Leah seems to be back the way it was before all the bad stuff happened. We are very very in love again, and I couldn't be happier ( Read more... )