Time to start thinking about making myself presentable for work I suppose. It’s been five days since I had a bath and a shave. I doubt they would be impressed by the tramp look. I can tell I’m starting to feel better because the weird dreams are subsiding and I only ever dream when I’m ill. I won’t recall. Who is interested in anyone else’s dreams ( Read more... )

I woke up at six am and I could hardly see, just kept shivering and was aching all over. It’s been about two years since I took a day off work sick and a quick functionality check showed I was going to be taking at least another one. I couldn’t even leave a voicemail on my bosses phone because I couldn’t speak, so I sent an email instead. The ( Read more... )

It’s just a ride; after all that’s what the great man himself said. But it isn’t just a ride is it? The only constant is that you always pay. Sometimes pennies, sometimes in pounds, but pay nonetheless. I can spare a sixpence now and then though. It’s only when it costs more than a pound that it starts to hurt like a bitch.

Cath’s back. She’s just been accusing me of crying. Errmm…that’s not something I do very often at all, but there was no telling her. I think the puffy black eyes are more to do with lack of sleep lately than anything else. Not that I’m complaining…just saying ( Read more... )

( may in the garden )

Not ignoring anyone, just not well all week and to many hours at work. Felt really bad earler and thought I was just worn out but I’ve been throwing up for england….forst om my bedroom floor and then I made it to the loo. Just found the keys to a car in my pocket so I have to go to work in the morning, but I’ll see if I can come home early. I’m ( Read more... )

To be stupid, selfish, and have good health are three requirements for happiness, though if stupidity is lacking, all is lost. - Gustave Flaubert

Strange, check, check and check again….so how come I’m not happy? Maybe my stupidity has sincere origins and is therefore flawed. I’m nothing if not sincerely stupid.

Test drive was cancelled due to shitty software. Work is pretty crap at the moment too. I think da management must have been on some course about leadership or decision-making because it’s micro-management time for all us lowly scumbag engineers. Nothing makes you feel like you’re doing a good job more that someone with no idea what is it you do ( Read more... )

( hamster )

Been living off service station food for a few days now, and I’m only back home for a few hours before going to my parents. It’s my dad’s 60th today, otherwise I’d be working today too. Yesterday was like a meeting from Return of the Living Dead, with zombie engineers on autopilot, sporting huge black rings under the eyes. I suppose burning the ( Read more... )