this morning i was outside. and as you know, it was cold. there was some snow left over from saturday, and birds were all around. and some were chirping, and the trees were all still. the sun was shining. then i ripped a loud fart. for some reason, it didn't seem fit in with the scenery. but i still had fun ( Read more... )

this weekend has been decent. better then most. except that on saturday, like always, it ends early. : / but today i went out with danny which is always enjoyable ( Read more... )

why did i take ap history? i mean seriously. i constantly have a low grade in that class until report cards come out. it really ruins my self esteem. i guess i thought i could handle the challenge. i know if i really wanted to, i could think about what is being given to me and work with it. the teacher gives us a minimum amount of work, he is nice ( Read more... )

these days, everything in the world just seems to be wrong with me; insulin resistance, my thyroid, etc. the past week i have been feeling weak and not so hott. my mom woke me up at 8am and basically screeched "we are going to the doctor in thirty minutes !" jesus fucking christ. what a way to ruin some good goddamn sleep. i go to the doctor and ( Read more... )

yesterday i stayed home from school. mainly because i was sad. and little under the weather. and at 230pm i had to go to downtown anyways to take this radioactive pill , that does junk to my thyroid. and i went to school today, and i mean i was okay for awhile, then i got sad. my dad picked me up and i got this CT scan of my actual thyroid to ( Read more... )

i always notice things about people. all the really negative things. and i want to fix them immediately. i always stare at people in my classes and just look at them, or the way they move their mouth, or talk or their mannerism... and just come up with all these weird imperfections ( Read more... )

so as we all know, the new semester started. and i have... adv.french 3, a.p. us history (all year long :/ ) , algebra with trig., and adv. english 3. it's sounds difficult, maybe? but it's a little intimidating. the class that is going to be the most frustrating is english. and i know this because , i don't like reading. i never really have. even ( Read more... )

i am going to read approximately 120 pages of Huckleberry Finn tomorrow. the rest i read over the summer. my mother insists i go to the YMCA and work on my bod for 30minutes too. phew. i really have to make myself do these things. i wonder what it is like for others that work out. do they enjoy burning their muscles and getting out breath? weird. i ( Read more... )

i was completely, and still am crazy. last night my man came over and we fought probably like.. 4 times. and in the third fight i just wanted to rip through the house and tear everything up . so i threw a phonebook and slammed a couple of doors. my mom was driving danny home and we started to argue (as usual) and she mentioned my weight. and i ( Read more... )

i downloaded songs today : ) and it was joyous. especially the older songs. a download of a batch of tunes , is always good.

sometimes i just want to quit.