Happy Halloween guys.
I am at Phil's right now dressed as an 80's girl. Ha.
I miss Zac SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH.
I hope everyone has a good halloween. I'm going trick or treating. :)

Zac left me the sweetest message while i was at the show. He wrote me a poem and read it to me in the message. And o my gosh. It was the best poem I have ever heard. He wrote about how he loved me. I miss him so much.
I hope I am here next time he calls.
All this time I have been feeling so worthless and so unloved. But i am loved. And I love him ( Read more... )

This unhappiness is getting ridiculous. Can i not just be happy for one full day. It hasn't even been 24 hours and im sitting here crying because i miss zac so much. i don't know what im going to do without him. He's everything to me. He's the only person that can make me feel better. and that's a fact. I hope i'm still here when he comes back.

( pictures of my lovey dove. )

went to desiree's. Hung out with Phil, Trailor, and Josh/Jason. Home now.
I am nothing. I am the blank page that you can't think of anything to write on.
Too many people don't like me. For bogus reasons. Fuck that.
I love you.
I love you.
My hand in your hand. You're tongue in my mouth. That's how I want to spend the rest of my life.
Where are you. ( Read more... )

So once again I am being persicuted for something that isn't even the truth about how I feel.
Life sucks.

Here's my day in a nutshell.
- Woke up.
- didn't want to go to school
- went to school
+ survived my classes
+ hugged mike.
+ came home.
- Desiree's mad at me?
+ went to zac's.
+ enjoyed mcdonalds and ice cream.
- came home
- read Desiree's lj
- :(

That' ( Read more... )

I just got home from a meeting with the school. And guess what! If I start going to school I will graduate this year! woooohooooo!

Brandon came by while i was gone. :( I hope he comes back.

I saw Miss Lauren, I want to go to her house today but I'm not to sure if I can.

I sort of feel like sleeping.

kthnx.bye.

I got caught skipping once again today. (3rd time, i might add) And I have just given up. I hate school. I hate everything about it. I don't even trust myself to go. I'm so behind. I can't get credit for any of my classes because i have WAY TOO MANY absences ( Read more... )

this weekend = eh. it was alrite. Saturday was and ok day. and sat. night was awesome.

Love is for suckers. I guess i'm officially a sucker.

My dreams keep me sane.

Actions speak louder than words. I prefer words though.

jfdklsjg;ldfshks;jdhsgfsdjklghdfh;l. thats for you.

Kori and Chris came to Victoria today. They are adorable. I had a great time hanging out with them.

For about 2 hours of my day it was shitty as hell. But hell, I'm over it.

Me and Lauren went to Cody's apartment. It was great. Lots of fun. It really brightened up my evening. Then a few of us decided to jet, (after I got high)  and went to Lauren's ( Read more... )

- fuck zac and his stupid pot

- mike

- stuffiness

- boredem

+ had a good dream last night

+ my mom

+ desiree, lauren, and nick

- amber

I am really bored right now. And pissed at zac. I'm also very confused. Why are boys (with an s) SO stupid.

Just because you're not "with" someone anymore doesn't mean you disinclude them from your entire life.

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