I found more baby gerbil skeletons. Disgusting. I'm disappointed in the mommy gerbil.

I work a short day tomorrow, but an early one. Eight to noon. I don't have classes Mondays or Tuesdays for the Spring quarter, so every weekend will be an extended weekend. Hopefully that gives me more time for my baby. <3 I just need a car (and a license) and I' ( Read more... )

Today, after working with Windows 98 and Microsoft Works instead of Word, I finally got XP and Word and I love it! My computer is beautiful, the keyboard is new, the mouse is new, the drives are clean. It's wonderful. The only thing left to fix is buying print cartridges for my printer tomorrow. I'm excited for everything! Yay!

I love spending time with my baby. This weekend was awesome.. minus the not being able to have sex part and my stupid mood swings. I really believe that Katy and I have an extreme connection. I can't wait to see her this weekend, even though she just left really early this morning. *sigh* I seriously cannot wait until we both have the time to stay ( Read more... )

Things or people are not always what you think they are. People lie, masks are worn, and there's no remorse felt for doing wrong.

Loving and trusting.. things I do too often.. Why should I care? Why should I go out of my way for people who don't care for me?

I'm upset but enraged..
I want to cry but kill..
I love but I hate.

Honestly? I'm tired of being alive. Everything is out of my hands. Nothing I can control. The list never ends. Nothing is the same. I'm okay one minute, and upset the next. A bright light at the end of a tunnel actually sounds.. great.

Sometimes life doesn't seem worth living anymore. So many things have gone wrong. I must be a bad person for all of these things to have happened ( Read more... )

I wonder where your heart is
'Cause it sure don't feel like it's here
Sometimes I think you wish
That I would just disappear
Have I got it all wrong
Have you felt this way long
Are you already gone
Do you feel lonely
When you're here by my side
Does the sound of freedom
Echo in your mind
Do you wish you were by yourself
Or that I was someone else
Anyone else
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I need to be touched.. feel loved.. feel beautiful and wanted. Playing by myself doesn't have a greater effect.. why? Why does it have to be someone else for me to be satisfied? I used to be able to satisfy myself, but as my life takes a dive, my sex drive peaks to the top of the hill. I'm confused. Unsure of what to do, how to react to things. I'm ( Read more... )

As most probably know, for a while there, I had 14 gerbils. 2 parents, and 2 litters of 6. I still have 6 little ones, but thinking about them must've lead me to dream about them ( Read more... )

When will life start going up hill again? I feel like I've lost a good friend ( Read more... )