This was an accident ( Read more... )

I'm beginning to feel better about some things.. but confused about others. I like the feeling of getting over someone, and I love just dwelling in music. I don't think I'm good for anyone, to be honest.

( July the 4th )

I'm not sure what I'm feeling..
          but it's painful..
       sharp pains in the center of my chest..
            these eyes can't stop crying tonight.
 And yet..
              almost seven AM and I'm still not near passing out..
    yet another dose of unwanted pills to help.

It's been a while since I've updated this journal, but I'm not so sure anyone really reads it anyhow. I think I'll be changing it again soon. I often like to run away from my problems and start anew. Why shouldn't I start new? I'm in a new house, I have a new room, new candles to make love to, no girlfriend, a freshly broken heart, and a trip to ( Read more... )

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A person with a borderline personality disorder often experiences a repetitive pattern of disorganization and instability in self-image, mood, behavior and close personal relationships. This can cause significant distress or impairment in friendships and work. A person with this disorder can often be bright and intelligent, and appear warm, ( Read more... )

I know that every couple has their problems and issues.. but ours never end. We'll be okay after having talked about some things, but only for a short while. I think I've been pretty good in not trying to control.. but who knows ( Read more... )

Life is turning around.. FINALLY! I got my car today.. I like it! I got rid of the gerbils today.. I'll miss them but it was time to go ( Read more... )

I'm hating today. Nothing ever goes right. Obstacles here, another there. Fuck it all. Now I have to go to my fucking grandmother's house if I am to go to school next year because my immature father is holding his tax information ransom until I return photos that he lent to my stepdad for mom's funeral. Grrr! I'm coming home from hell and going ( Read more... )

Sometimes I think I just can't win, but I know it isn't her fault. She just doesn't feel well. I just feel like I did something wrong. I'm trying to make everyone happy. I helped grandma set up, I changed the time we're going to Grandma Terry's so Jeanette could go to Keith's for a while, I scrubbed the kitchen for over an hour this morning, and I' ( Read more... )