Better than I was in the last post. I'm not good at communicating my feelings in a timely manner. Instead I let things boil on low until it just all comes out in a sloppy mess. It's a character defect I suppose, and one that needs work. I haven't had any alkyhol in a coupla days and I feel pretty good. I haven't "quit" so to speak, but simply ( Read more... )

What the fuck. I feel like I'm just a sex object. I know that I'm nothing special, but the one person that I think cares so much about me is seeming to be acting like any other testosterone-drivin being. I know it can't be because of my looks, I'm not the prettiest thing for real. Ugh. I think I love him but I don't know. I want someone who ( Read more... )

There's this kid I met the first time I ever went to NA. He had like 3 months clean or something and then relapsed. For the past 9 months that's what would happen, and he shared almost every meeting. Sometimes he was even able to chair the meetings, I thought he was doing good. Then finally last weekhe relapsed again, and died in his sleep the ( Read more... )

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What a acrazy morning I had today ( Read more... )

Did I mention that the bitches in Cherokee County put me in jail again last weekend? Not this past weekend, but the one before that, when Pat was still in town visiting. They called my color on Saturday (which they NEVER do) and were only going to be open for testing in the morning. Well fine, but I NEVER go in the morning cuz my creatin levels ( Read more... )

I miss Timmy and Pat's leaving too soon......boooooooo!

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Since the last time I posted. I'm just chillin', getting ready to go to work at 4 today. I can't believe I've been at the same job for almost 3 months allready, it's amazing. Well, I guess that's what happens when you're not wiggin' out all the time. HA! And I'm turnig into a shopping fool! Most of it's neccessity, like new pants cuz my old ( Read more... )

Estoy bien, y tu ( Read more... )