At this moment, I'm sitting at my laptop alone in my room listening to really beautiful soothing music and feeling really sad. Nick just left this morning to go back to Oregon which is like a 7 hour drive back on a bus. I know this sounds lame and i don't think anyone can relate... but it's hard when he leaves at the end of every weekend. I miss ( Read more... )

These past few days have been the most amazing times of my life despite all that is happening right now in my family. I just want to say that i appreciate all those who have been there for me both now and in the past. U guys truly are amazing. I've never felt so loved and cared about than at this moment in my life. Now, i really know that i can get ( Read more... )

HI EVERYONE!! i miss you guys sooooo much. I realized that i needed to start posting bulletins so that people will know that i'm still alive and haven't completely ignored all my friends. how has everyone been? i've been okay. thanks to those who have been helping me through the crisis in my life. if u don't know what i'm talking about, don't worry ( Read more... )

It's saturday and i find myself in my room doing absolutely nothing. Everyone is gone. Off to some party no doubt. Today or actually yesterday was one very frustrating day. A lot of stuff happened and right now my mind is racing and i can't help but feel like i'm the only one experiencing it all. I know people will tell me i'm not alone but right ( Read more... )

so it's my birthday today. yay go me. actually it won't be my b-day in less than an hour. :( way sad. anywaz, let me see what was i going to say... oh yea i'm 19 now. a bit old don't u think? so how is life u ask me? interesting i would say. I've been spending my time doing a lot of homework and trying to occupy my mind. I've met a few interesting ( Read more... )

so i'm at uw and staying with AWESOME people. my neighbors are da bomb. One is like a computer genius and he knows absolutely everything about technology. The other guy is a bit boring but i like going in there and watching tv with them. I love my roommate. she's sooo nice to me. In addition, there is this guy at the end of my hallway who laughs ( Read more... )

It hurts when you lose someone. It hurts even more when u lose someone because of you. I had someone who loved me more than i could ever love myself but i threw that away because i couldn't be strong. I didn't know what i wanted. What i thought i wanted, wasn't what i wanted at all. I wish the saying "u don't know what u have until u lose it" wasn' ( Read more... )

( survey )

Today while i was driving home from linen and things and listening to 106.9 (yea that soft music station w/ that one girl), a song came on the radio that I hadn't heard in a really long time. It reminded me of a situation I was in but instead of me being the one going through what the person was going through, i found that I was listening to the ( Read more... )

This entry is gonna be a major update on what has been happening in my life so far. That includes frustrations, fears and some happy thoughts ( Read more... )