Life is funny, funny in the kind of way that while you conemplating suicide the only you want to hold you, wants nothing to do with you for other surrounding issues. Life is funny

-Good bye Johnny

-Moving out

-Joesph

-Best friends

-Realizing a problem at hand.

-Kittens

-Disney World/Road Trip

-Julissa

-Brewers

-Turning 21!

-School

-Being sick

So many things have happened this year, both good and bad. Another year has come and gone, and i am trying my best to prepare for the good and bad of 2009. This is going to be a good year, well it ( Read more... )

I have dealt with this so many times before, but for some reason its different this year.. Like i picked off a scab to an almost healed wound. I cant even control myself. Maybe its the alcohol, maybe its hormones. I miss her so much and i hate this time of year, especially this year. i feel so alone.. and i hate feeling alone. It eats me up inside ( Read more... )

Its christmas eve and im doing nothing but drinkin and listening to music...

lame....

A to B, and B to C, and C to D, and D to E....... And E to A?? WTF, i really am back at A and offically lost it

Christmas is coming and i am so not ready for any of it.. Not giving, not recieving, not laughing... not any of it. I wish i could crawl into a hole and not have to see any one, this entire week. I hate not  having money. I know this shouldnt be about gifts, but lets face it, it is! I hate that ppl spent time and effort in getting me stuff, and i ( Read more... )

16 points.

When its good, its great, but when its bad its horrible.

Things are so good right now. Im not even sure how to explain it. It has to be instinct, just something inside us. She completely gets me, and i dont even have to explain myself to her, she just understands. I get her too.. not everything, but i do. Ironically, she knows what to say to shine ( Read more... )

For some reason, i just feel like im being put off to the side, when i need someone the most. I just needed some to actually comfort me this last week. I've never been this sick in my life. I have never felt this horrible. I just wanted some company, or maybe just a favor, but every time i asked something else seems to come up. Maybe im just being ( Read more... )

Im going to start small, and work big. Its because im so disgusted with things, that i may lose my mind if i dont. But hey i may lose my mind if i do.. lol.. I want to be a completely new person this day next year. In everypart of my life.