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Another lonley day and night. I did not think it was possible to get any worse then I already am but I was wrong. There is no rock bottom to this. You forever just keep falling. It's cold, dark and so very lonley. I keep wishing that this is all a dream, that I will wake up and be normal and possibly happy. I feel like I'm living the same day over ( Read more... )

Its been a really long time since I have wrote in this thing. There is nothing much that has happened these past few months, just the same old shit ( Read more... )

It been a long time since I updated this thing. Anyways My boyfirend and I are moving. Were going to be leaveing in a few weeks so we are going to start packing. That's about the newest news I got. My bf friend shawn came down from NH and they Surprised me last night, came and picked my ass up. We had fun last night and we crashed at my bf's mom's ( Read more... )

Well a couple of days ago me and my bf went to his mom's to go take care of his little sister. He droped me off today and went to his class and will be home later tonight. Anyways I walked in and my parents tried to pull this fucking guilt trip on my ass about where I was and that they where worried and shit. I was like whatever, I have disapeared ( Read more... )

Well it's 12:11am right now. I was alseep a little while ago but now I can't sleep. I made bbq chicken tonight for dinner and for some strange reason I thought I left it in the oven which is impossible because we ate it why would it be in the oven. But still I ran down stairs because I smelled chicken, I was like oh shit. It was only john heating ( Read more... )

well today we fixed the car. put the bolts back on the door so it would not fall off. That is just about all we did today. I will write back later when I have something to say.

My bf picked me up today and we went to go stay at his mothers house. Things where going good until the drivers side door broke and swung open on a turn while going to his mothers. I was so scared shit less because I have a fear of falling out of cars. We go to his mom's and his mom threw a fit so we went back home. This is funny. we took a cord ( Read more... )

well, I did alot more moving today, fucked up my back again and my legs. My bf is coming home tomorrow which makes me happy because I miss him so much. I ended up talking to him last night till 2:30. It was nice, tonight he is going to talk to me to. Anyways things are going godd I guess accept I feel like shit and I am walking like an idiot cause ( Read more... )

Nothing really much happened today, moved some furniture for my bf so he could have his own office/music space. It's almost 11pm. I wanted to talk to him when he got out of class but he is not on. He is still mad at me but we are better. Friday or sat, he is going to be coming home, that will nice I miss him. I wonder if he misses me. Prob. not he ( Read more... )