I'm so confused.

Is it me?

Or am i just wanting it to be me?

I want answers.

I need answers.

that im sitting here. alone. cold. feeling like crap. my body aching. and me not knowing why. confused. i hate this feeling. im numb. and its not the good kind of numb. its the numb where i want to block everything out, not think anymore. im tired of school. i know. only 17 more days. but i cant wait anymore. its killing me. i just want these 17 ( Read more... )

so today is alright. i heard from him. THANK GOD. so im kinda happy. : )

lately i havent been wanting to write much of anything. which is weird because i always want to write down everything that happens in my life. but right now i dont. maybe beacuse it just seems so horrible i dont ever want to remember it. or maybe i think if i dont write it down i make myself believe it never happened. that would be great. if this ( Read more... )

wow. so much can change in such a short amount of time.

i was happy, what happened?

it depresses me to think i have to take pills to make me happy.

it just doesnt seem fair. why do they get to be happy all by themselves?

i want to be normal. i want to be normal. i want to be normal. i want to be normal.

maybe some day down the line i will be. ( Read more... )

So, lifes alright right now. there is a few minor details im working on, but its pretty good.

i like life. i havent felt like this in a lonngg time.

i might actually be happy for a while.

weird...

they always say they care. yeah right. if they did they wouldnt hurt me like this

i hate being a fucking high school girl in love.. or lust rather

what do i do know. i feel that everything i do to make something right only makes it worse. i do this and it makes this happen. why? im only tying to fix things. i just dont know how. i feel like i should just give up. but then again. i dont want to because then im a failure. and i dont want to be a failure, i want to be a success. i feel like ( Read more... )

i know i just left an entry. like 3.568794 minutes ago. but, i dont care.

life is beautiful.

and i think i freaking bipolar. geez.

i know lifes good. and every now and then theres a few bumps in the roads. and its hard to sleep when your going over those bumps. and it really sucks when theres a lot of bumps in a short distance ( Read more... )

     so "LIFE" is basically a bunch of bullshit. i just dont understand. maybe im jealous or something. but people make me sick.like, how some people think because they have new friends and new look that lifes fine. thats shit. and how they decide they dont need someone anymore. hm. well that just hurts. then i try to be the one who makes peace and ( Read more... )