ok so i dont mean to be so mello dramatic guys but this is the last live journal i will ever write. im going to miss it because it was my last attempt at privacy with the exception of a few (ivy, seth). i found out however yesterday that my mother reads it often. which is part of the reason i thought i would type one last journal. you see for a ( Read more... )

the weekend was kickass by the way. i loved going to the mall and that one dude with the nightmare before christmas jacket was REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY HOT. LIKE ALOT. he had some gorgeous blue eyes. any way saw in good company which was to funny. IVY I WANT TO BE IN A FOXHOLE WITH YOU!!!! LMAO. god thats funny. phillip was hitting on me ( Read more... )

hi. hmmm im feeling strange today. lack of sleep i think. I was up talking to that crazy kid ivy. STOP CALLING MY HOUSE DAMMIT!!! no im totally just joking call whenever the hell you want i didnt know i could talk that much about anything at all. mom has officially decided im depressed so ill probably have to go to a psychiatrist or therapist or ( Read more... )

ok so this week has been extremely shitty on the extreme. mom is pissed at me because basicly i told her that i didnt like her. what would ytou think if your mother told you "in the nicest way possibly" that you were a dissapointment because you arent the type of girl who swoons over every cute guy she meets or likes makeup or going to the stupid ( Read more... )

OMG im going to effing kill morgan if she dosent shut the fuck up about the whole cameron and lauren thing. god its so dumb they broth need to grow up. and she was freaking talking about me behind my back saying that i only had to know a person for 10 second before i made out with him. hello i never made out with that one dude at kentucky kingdom ( Read more... )

im in first block...bored out of my mind. i wish i could go home and sleep. my friend who was pregnant had a miscarriage her parents never found out luckily. its funny how people change. i mean you see them at one time they go away for like 6 months come back and are totally changed. i guess some changes are good but not all of them are for the ( Read more... )

hey hey hey. its been a while since ive updated. not much happening. (not that anybody cares) my friend who is pregnant now has a boyfriend who dosent even know shes pregnant. how dumb is that how can she go out with anybody especially someone who dosent know?? she dosent even know the father. she says she plans on telling him (and her mother) ( Read more... )

looking back on journal entries i sound like a whiny little bitch. i hate being that way cause it gets on my nerves and everybody elses. if somebody notices this hit me as hard as you can. thanks. even though i sound whiny that hopeless kind of feeling is still there. you know? i mean my best friend is going to have a kid and shes still a kid my ( Read more... )

it turns out one of my very best friends is pregnant. 7 weeks. shes diabetic and theres like a 90% cahnce she will miss carry. im drained not much to say except im worried.
later

how do you help some one who thinks that they have to have someone else to be happy? All i want for this certain person is for them to be happy. but i dont think its possible for this person to be happy until this person can truly love themselve first. i want to see this person happy thats all im asking. maybe im wrong maybe this person is going ( Read more... )