How do you tell the people in your life that you just don't want to live anymore? I'm tired, lost, and I just want to go to sleep....

Last night I had a dream that I got really drunk and walked into the ocean and died....it was the best dream I've had in a long time.

So I'm now 21. I'm supposed to be happy, right? I'm very depressed.... my girlfriend's been gone for a week and she misses me more than ever but I can't stop wishing for attention from other dykes. I feel uglier than ever...I never get hit on. whatever. I'm so alone. I give up... I'm tired of trying to be happy. I'm tired of wishing someone ( Read more... )

So after being depressed and working my ass off all summer, I'm FINALLY moving back to SF! I'm so stoked that I can't figure out what else to write at the moment...I'll write more later.

So besides working, aquiring the largest collection of dildos EVER, and just living life, I seem to have lost a little weight. I walk twice a day anywhere from around the block to a couple of miles and I was curious about my weight... So I weighed myself last night...148!!!! Almost exactley 1 year ago, I weighed in at a hefty 240 pounds (although ( Read more... )

To those people in my life that have become distant lately- I apologize I haven't been there for you enough ( Read more... )

So this has to be quick, but I finally got a job! It's full time and I found it on Craigslist!!! The very best part of my job, is that I work at a dildo factory!!! It's called Tantus Silicone (they do have a website if you're curious). I'm hoping to be back in SF permanently by the end of October or early September but until then.... I'll be ( Read more... )

I need to rent a car but I'm not old enough...anyone have any ideas? I'm desperate!

HOLY SHIT! that was my longest, most thought-out post ever! YAY me!

Oh my god this is the cheesiest, funniest, cutest, mushiest, most awe-inspiring ( the "awe how cute" kind of awe of course!), most emotional email EVER! Come on, you KNOW you wish that you could've written this ( Read more... )