I'm sick of trying to find a job... I'm sick of trying to live. I give up on everything and everything I ever learned is a lie. I'm hoping that I find the courage to save myself, but every way I can think of is either too painful or too complicated to carry out. Anyone have any ideas? How many sleeping pills does it take to never wake up? Can ( Read more... )

Oh my god it's 3 AM and I haven't slept in 2 days but I just gave myself my first orgasm and I can't sleep and I can't believe it FINALLY happened! (breathe)AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

hee hee ok I better go to sleep before I lose my sanity.

OUTIE

So I was reading an old friend's LJ and I came upon some unexpected news... it's wonderful news, don't get me wrong, but I can't help feeling like a part of my heart is permanently disappearing. I know we haven't really been the best of friends, but I always thought you'd be in my life...even if it was only once in a while. Oregon is so far away ( Read more... )

So I haven't updated in forever, but I think I'll try updating more often from now on... anyway, life is insane right now. I can't believe I'm homeless at the end of this month...what am I going to do with all my shit? Where am I going to stay? Fuck. It'll all work out, right? It has to ( Read more... )

Why is it that people act all sweet to your face, like they actually missed you...and even care about you, but as soon as you're gone they talk shit about you? For everyone that actually reads this, it's much better to tell me you don't like me or may even think that I'm a bitch then to be two-faced...

So I know I haven't updated in ages but it's not like anyone reads my shit anyway right?

This past weekend has been stressful...and there's more to come this weekend! To some it may seem that I've dropped off the face of the earth-sorry! I've been busy fighting a war. I've been spending my free time at Newark Memorial High School in Fremont ( Read more... )

So, I'm sitting here, after seeing pictures and hearing stories about the last LJ bash, and my girlfriend informs me that the next LJ bash is 21 and up. What? Excuse me? I trust my girlfriend and all, but you expect me to sit here and let her go to the bash that she's told me stories of drunkenness and showed me pictures of whipped cream and ( Read more... )

So Las Vegas was a totally awesome trip!!! I'll post more details as well as pictures later, but I have a TON of reading to do ( Read more... )

So I know I need to update hardcore, and I swear I will, just not right now. :OP Anyways, I'm soooo ecstatic... we leave for Vegas the day after tomorrow.... om my goodness, oh my goodness

So my girlfriend took me to the walnut festival- it was super fun
Anyways.

Stacey and Alex came over last night for a couple of minutes...they brought the ( Read more... )

So I was a proud canvas of 17 works of art...piercings that is! Today I had to take out my only remaining nipple ring. Stupid piercer pierced both of them too low... dammit. I loved those piercings. I'm way bummed out now... they were a little part of me. :O( Oh well...time goes on right?