So as I sit and ponder over things as per usual..that and I have bronchitis and have been cooped up in this boring house for four days AND quit smoking which is making it worse!!!.....I have come to realize that I have control issues...not with other people just the world. I wish to control fate right now. I would like to direct some things towards ( Read more... )

So it's been a week since I was anticipating my trip to Ottawa.....boy how I wish I was there again this weekend. I don't remember a time like that in forever. I got to see my brother-one of my fav. people in the world...I got to meet his friends, who are the most hospitable and kind-hearted people, not to mention funny, oh and the cute pirate ( Read more... )

Well today was an okay day. Nothing extremely fabulous and nothing really crappy for a change. I'm physically and mentally exhausted from work and school but that's my own fault so I take responsibility. However the bright side is that I am not emotionally exhausted anymore. I am having problems with my emotions lately. I tend to feel absolutely ( Read more... )

TOMORROW WILL BE A FABULOUS DAY.....WHY?...B/C I FEEL FABULOUS ( Read more... )

Well, after the longest eight years of my life I got what I wanted. I thought that it would end this chapter in my life and the craving and what I thought could be an infatuation would disappear. Ya thats right I slept with my best friend! I haven't slept with him in 8 years and now he's leaving town again to go do his shit. I have just come to ( Read more... )

Well tonight I went to champs for 45 cent wings and beer with allllll my friends including him my best friend ( Read more... )

He is like a song that can never be overplayed ( Read more... )

He is so strong, he doesn't even see it ( Read more... )

Ya that's what I said AHHHHHH I am beyond frustrated tonight,today I had a three hour conversation about my life ....okay let's face it it was a three hour argument! Then work 5-2am where we beyond dead b/c of this shit weather then my friend calls drunk from the bar like what felt like ten times but it was only two to brag about how I should be ( Read more... )

Well this is my first entry in an online journal-can you believe it I'm actually a virgin to something-hahaha. ANyway, I suppose today I have one thing that keeps coming to mind and that is if you have ever seen the movie Sweet November it's how my life is best described right now. However I am not dying or sick I am affecting people's lives more ( Read more... )