You go through life as a young girl thinking every guy you are with you're in love and then when you finally experience it you realize that wow those other guys were nothing but just something to laugh about. Any hurt and pain you felt is diminished but soon comes back ten times harder when you lose your first real love as a woman. Some days I just ( Read more... )

As I would never be able to be with him now anyway b/c of trust I find that no one is him and that makes it so hard. Why does it still hurt and why can't the pain surface so I can cry and get over it! I'm passing up other wonderful people to sit and feel nothing b/c it's so much easier. I miss him, not what we had him I MISS HIM! Please make it go

I didn't honestly know that pain could last this long over someone who isn't worth the energy in the first place-this sucks!

Love hurts don't let anyone fool you and my new motto is why bother! I hate this feeling like someone ripped out my heart chewed it up took pictures and showed them to the world how much of a fool I am! I feel so broken that's the word!

Well maybe I was wrong...he'll never leave her and it's breaking my heart

Well just when I had given up I found him, yes "the one". He makes me smile when I don't feel like it, he makes me know that I can do anything but most importantly he has shown me how to love again and not push that feeling aside or away completely. It's not the most ideal situation as of now but I can only hope that it will become time for us to ( Read more... )

Finally someone wrote a song about me I swear! Download it, it's fantastic it's by Teddy Geiger and if you like Jon Mayer style you will love this 16 year old's voice it's insane and so soothing ( Read more... )

The same doors keep making themselves available to me to open and there I am pretty much kicking it down even though I know where they lead...will I ever learn or were they right, it's just who and what I am???

If I continue to not think about it then I won't have to feel anything about it. I am sick and don't need to get myself more upset right ( Read more... )

Everytime I see him I fall all over again and break my own heart again and that's why I stay away. Yet he comes to find me and never lets me walk out. He's like the cruelest punishment that hurts so bad! Eight years and it just will never go away will it...I thought it WAS gone but obviously not. I can't wait to go away tomorrow for a few days and ( Read more... )