im so so tired of trying so hard. i used to think it was hard to find yourself, to know yourself, to get by every day. but you know, its not for me. when i am just me, as lonely as it is, i am fine. i am somewhat happy and somewhat sane and most of all i know what or who i am. its when i have to be something to you all that i begin to crack. I cant ( Read more... )

I forget sometimes who I am. Not in that " what year is it" way, but in the genuine way where you kid yourself into thinking you are something you arent. Maybe i dont really forget, I just convince myself im something else. someone else. someone better, stronger, smarter. Less fragile ( Read more... )

so i started this thing in a way to talk to someone who wasnt talking to me. as a sort of detective device, to see if he would respond. and things became okay, and now they arent again. whatever. im starting to get tired of the stupid rollercoaster that relationships are. im tired of the yes, no, yes, no game. i guess things never change and you ( Read more... )

so im doing it. im stoked. im painting, and im starting to tattoo. im doing my best to really step it up. i know that the next year is going to be a tough one, but thats alright. im resilient ( Read more... )

you never know. things/people are never what they seem. at least all the hectic ones are vanishing. god, my carreer is gonna be awesome. that thought and that thought alone is getting me through this.

tough love. hand tats, baby. hand tats.

ooh. im getting them today! i cant decide what i want "old friend", or "silly girl". both very me. only one very depressing. why do i wnat the depressing one the most??????

i love coffee shops. i absolutely love coffee shops.
i got so disgustingly drunk last night i remembered why ive been drinking alot of ginger alke lately. i am happy to say that i didnt do anything too stupid, but i did sleep til 2 again. whatever. do it while youre young right?

random emails. songs that make you want to be the way you used to be. building furniture. shying your elbow away from his because you dont know what it could lead to. going outside to scream because you just have to. missing your friends. wanting to hold someones hand. kissing your friends forehead when she looks like shes going to cry. being the ( Read more... )

thank you 2004. for everything ( Read more... )