it's so quiet ...

[libraterra]

It's been so quiet around here - where is everyone?  I hope that means everyone is doing well.  I've been hanging in there but I can feel myself sliding.  The latest is - I found out I'm pregnant.  It was a shock because we had medical intervention to be able to have my first child 2 years ago and the doctor told me I couldn't get pregnant again.

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[xanguisettex]

sometimes listening and feeling validated is what is needed.

it's not selfish, i don't think...i can imagine that pregnancy is hard, but a LOT harder if you've had mental health problems in the past. i've been told before that pregnancy would be like a death sentence for me with the problems i have :(

maybe your friend will come around given time? i hope so.

*hugs*

[baretoedgirl]

I'm sorry you are stressing...I know just what its like to be alone. For the first time in my life I have friends, but still when things get rough no one wants to touch me, and I'm alone. I'm not so much on a self harm binge, I'm on a suicidal one...I've even lost my drive to write my poetry. I rarely share my words with anyone I know, it must be nice that you can.
Know you won't burn us out here...vent all you need. You certainly aren't alone. Sending you hugs and strength. Wish I could do more.

[ladymerab]

to baretoed girl, please don't pursue suicide. please talk to someone. please remember you are strong. please stay strong.

to the poster, hugs. you don't burn us out as others have said. and congratulations on the baby. i pray that all works out well. hugs. you stay strong as well.

[raze__the_rose]

I know how you feel. I used to be able to be "read" by my best friend and he'd be giving me a hug and telling me it was all okay but he's pulled away the last several months and hasn't even noticed that i'm falling again. You're not alone, though. That's what this community is for! And I don't always comment but I ALWAYS read. *hug*

[freakababy]

Congrats on the baby. I know that you are feeling overwhelmed and maybe unprepared for this new challenge but God obviously has a plan for you and you have to have faith and believe that he knows what he is doing

[xanguisettex]

that's my guess, is that they might be overwhelmed. i have some very caring friends, but they aren't therapists or doctors. same goes for me. i'm an understanding person, but i have my limits as to what i am able to help with, and what i am not. it sounds like you need more support than others are able to give--check around locally to see if there are counselors or therapists. many work on sliding scale fees, and it can be a godsend to have someone to talk to who will LISTEN and won't judge you. it sounds like a lot of people are judging you and it's bringing you down.

sometimes strength and relief comes in acceptance--accepting doesn't mean you have to like it.

my two cents is, with the pregnancy...please do what is safe and healthy for YOU, not for everyone else. they're not pregnant--you are. please don't let anyone force you into a corner that you don't want to be in.