Well the holidays is a very lonely time. I woke up and forgot it was Christmas. Well I might be deploying sooner then expected or I might not nobody knows and I won't know till maybe the day before I leave on the plane. I can't sleep recently the insomnia is kicking in again. It's 3 in the morning and I can't sleep. I hate my job. I've had such a ( Read more... )

So the anti depressants I've been taking aren't really working. I think I see an effect at times, but then I think maybe thats just me wanting to see an effect and making it up. I really don't know what to believe anymore. Am I really this useless to society or am I just thinking it. Does nobody like me or am I just making things up. I'd really ( Read more... )

Well my new medication is starting to take effect and I'm starting to feel a tad bit better. I've been listening to a John lennon Cover song by a perfect circle of imagine. Sorry Juan but it's sounds better then when he did it. Oh well that it all.

I have now lost the game known as life. No not the board game.

I need a friend :(

I feel lost. I'm getting the feeling like everyday I'm getting more and more lost and confused about what to do where to go what I'm doing. Hell I don't even know what normal is anymore. I tried online dating because of job reasons it's hard ot go out and meet people. It was a horrid failure. It seems the more and more I go along in life the more ( Read more... )

So I found and tried a new dating site. It was a horrible failure. The only replies I got was from botters and scammers. Made me deeply said for the online scene. Oh well I give up.

Well I'm back in so cal. So that means call me. I only have a week so yeah. 4058022464

I feel as my life is at a standstill. Kinda like it hasn't progressed at all in 2 years. Like I just hit pause and nothing is happening. Kinda empty inside really. It seems everyone is always so busy. Nobody ever calls me. Nobody ever leaves me an email. It's kinda lonely at the bottom.

I've been feeling out of it lately. Like I'm not interested in doing anything at all. Kinda like everything I seem to be doing isn't what I want to do regardless of what I'm doing. Bored with everything. I must be trippin.