I love some people better at a distance, and I need to accept that this is ok, I'm not being selfish, and I'm doing what I can with what I can give.

Yesterday night when you asked me why I was sad about leaving, I said it was because I had this fear that we wouldn’t meet anymore. I thought more deeply about my behaviour and reaction, and I realised - this fear is irrational. It is rooted in past experiences and encounters with men who I went out with several years ago. I have had experiences ( Read more... )

1. We tend to text a lot and deeply. Doing so will only make Ariel continue to have feelings for Jeremy, while Jeremy does not know whether he will ever feel the same way. It is messy and could cause more hurt. Best to avoid this.

2. Hence we should not speak from now until Jeremy sorts himself out, or when Ariel no longer feels anything for ( Read more... )

Since you told me things didn’t work out w your ex (Nov 2019), I have been praying that you will find your way, including your way back to god. Seeing as how things are, I will continue to pray as such. I’m not a great christian. But I hope I will have a deep and enduring relationship with god, and I’m working towards that. I wish the same for you ( Read more... )

I think you can love someone without truly understanding them. You fall in love with who you think they are, and what you think they stand for. How many relationships around me comprise people who do not necessarily understand each other but want to make things work anyway?

Sometimes I feel that I have to constantly put on a front. To pretend to ( Read more... )

I am not my fears or my insecurities. They are a part of me but do not define my identity. I, am a child of God. Vicky made me realise that only the word of God can really comfort and heal. I want to be soothed by His words when I feel troubled, words which feel loving and tender. Something only a fellow Christian can do with conviction.

True love ( Read more... )

I think I have learnt to rationalise away what I cannot have. It’s a self defence mechanism, to convince myself that I no longer want what I used to, and to find fault with what I desired. If we allow ourselves to be paralysed with loss and longing, then we cannot live.

I’m not sure why you were never attracted enough to me to want me as a lover ( Read more... )

I still think of you.

I wonder what God has in store for me.

Sometimes I think I have myself to blame in part for the aching loneliness I feel. The heart is very reluctant to put myself out there.

My recent trip to Bali reminded me that we don't need a lot to live. What makes me feel alive?

Something has been on my mind for quite awhile now. I would honestly rather speak in person. But i’m not sure if we will meet. I don’t like to second guess or skirt around issues so here goes. (This is long.)

Since last year, I genuinely considered you a friend. I meant all that I said about having at least a friendship and wishing the best for you ( Read more... )

I now realise I have my own journey to undertake. To figure out where I want to be, and how to get there.

May our paths cross again. I wish and pray it is you, but I know I have to hope in Him, not you.