my life is just devoted to others. i don't know why.
i can't be alone. i don't like myself when i'm alone.
and yet, i think i am terrified of anything else.

i pass up so many opportunities because what if i find out who i am?

it has been almost a month since i posted.

summer is here.
this makes me happy.
better things to do than sit on the internet.

summer is costly. everything is so expensive these days.

europe europe europe!

nobody girl
they want us to fight but we just wanna get high
40 watt club

productivity
:) mmmmmm good

2 more days.

a few more days. and then not for a long time.

i like movies and tv and warm weather.

EUROPE TRIP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i will miss my boys a lot.

bleh bleh bleh
i hate river city these days. a whole lot. sorry citizens.

no road trip, but that means TOTAL ULTIMATE PARTY PARTY roadtrip come summertime.

this weekend and this spring break

better kick ass.

and old man is coughing on me
i hate not having a little private computer.

blue

i miss things ( Read more... )

both computers have crashed so now i live alone in my room ( Read more... )

im not really sure how everything got this fucked up so suddenly.
it was building itself up i guess. it was gradual and subtle.

it feels like no matter how i approach this, i will never be proud of myself ever again.

i was the sleepiest girl in the entire world, and then i fell off of the cliff ( Read more... )

yesterday i :

found an old daisy chain
listened to an old cd
sat outside to enjoy the weather.

and pow, it felt just like last summer.