anooother day, just as the day before. i really feel as tho im wasting time a lot, every day i do the same crap. come home, eat, sleep, go online, read 2 or 3 useless chapters out of a book for english class (sometimes it isnt sucha abd thing) and then i go to bed, this is an everyday pattern occasionally replaced with band practice. and WTF is ( Read more... )

michelle branch kicks ass, and..as much as im afraid to admit this...so does john mayer...i said it alright! haha i been listening to john mayer and michelle branch all day to kinda "sooth" my spirits haha now if that doesnt sound like something a hippy would say i dont kno what is. damn where to start... 2 dollar fine ahs a BIG appearance coming ( Read more... )

ahh man what i've learned i've taken for granted so many years, is Arash. i've known him since 6th grade and used to be a major ass ot him, i gues si still am sometimes, i used to be to busy trying to be cool then be strait with him..I wish i could redo some thigns, but what's done is done. but he defintity cheered my down ass upw ith this.. ( Read more... )

wow what long time snce i wrote in this last, i stpped writing, cuz i had othig new to write about, and i still dont.everythings the same w/ her, except i slipped back into the "uncool" mode as its been referred to, where im upset 99% of the day. just got back from ericas birthday/life thing. it was strait, shes a cool kid, it was fun, but of ( Read more... )

my band is never going to amount to shit. none ofthem are nearly dedicated enuff or have the desire that i do, or all of our other band friends have. the only one close is bryan, jarret likes to think he is, but is just as badas joey, and all joey thinks about is his g/f, and donald is kinda in another world half the time. i feel like im never ( Read more... )

well it has been a while so yea.. i guess i've been doin stuff, normal spring break stuff, hangingout gtting home late the normal boring nonsense whatever. my whole obsession thing is getting better. i still care about her and like her more then ever, but for some reason it doesnt hurt as much when i hang out with her as it used to. i'v hung out ( Read more... )

AAAAAHHH the tension in my house right now is incredible...i had 1 of the worst days ever today, had a bad day already being upset over u know who again, my arm really fuckin hurts where i cut it, she told me if i wanted to talk i could always call her...i kno i never will, not even 2 mintues after she said that to me, i open my door to walk in the ( Read more... )

worse day of school EVERRRR definitly failed tests in 3 of my 4 classes..not a good start to the last quarter of the year. I completely freaked out today and just brokedown after lunch today in class. Leave it to me, to see her in lunch and get upset, just so i could go back and visit her in her lunch. what was i thinking?? i dont understand myself ( Read more... )

im trying to update this thing as seldom as possible from now on, because everytime i do, all i seemt o think about is her, and what she means to me, and what i dont mean to her. my weekend was not ruined, but not enjoyed mostly because of her, and she didnt even do anything, its ridiculous. Its ok tho because at the end of the day i still have the ( Read more... )

i lost my virginity today... my lunchline virginity that is, took me only almost 3 full years to go thru the lunch line for the first time.. lindsay and monica freaked out when jessica said i was no longer a virgin lol not explaining that it was for the lunch line and not in real life, crazy girls they are.heh ( Read more... )