things keep on changing, but i suppose they are still perfect. from this perspective in spacetime, i can see this and say it. i can only approach these truly scary events in my life with such calmness because i have an uh-mazing boy who loves the shit out of me, and has been my anchor through every step of my mishap pregnancy. so what if he won't " ( Read more... )

i was more than just your friend
but being more has made me less.
letting something start 
presumed the end
and now i wish i could go back in time
and not do this again
cause the last thing i needed
was another ex
without even first getting to have you as my boyfriend.

You were drunk insane
laying on the pavement
i picked up your head and made out with you
so for real...
That was my favorite part of last night.

my problem in life is i keep letting a genius talk me into things. now i've dropped out of grad school and i'm having a baby, alone; of course, the most glamorous way of all. safe from potential heartbreak and disappointment, and none of that extraneous input to deal with. just income, if the cards have been dealt in my favor. a boy, perfect. ( Read more... )

you are negative six months.
you first name is unborn,
your last name is mine.
all i can reasonably hope to promise you
is your future holds so much more love
than mine ever has.
but who knows,
maybe you'll surprise me,
and outdo me, yet again.

i have a boy who's here, here to take me away, to take me away to the only place i've ever wanted to go. so how long do i wait to raise the gate? i'm trying to get turned on, by a fantansy not centered on sex, but a dream where i give myself up to someone who wants me to do what i want, and wants to watch it happen with me. sure, i don't hardly ( Read more... )

pluck up the courage ( Read more... )

i want to try and direct all my enegies, sexual, creative, productive and otherwise in appropriate and worthy directions. im trying to determine that i've made the right choices, and will have good choices to make in the spirited, near future. a lot of things have happened. but buddhist doctrine tells me the only thing that can ever matter is this ( Read more... )

getting caught up in naked angels in the clouds
or demons in the grass

never step on a stray sod, he said,
you'll never find your way back.

all the complex clouds in my head,
like fog i am composed of

furiously try to make sense from nonsense;
try to remove odors with incense, make work from toys. 
try to make music devoid of noise.

a cloud of heads,
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 when you're sexy everything you do is sexy
be sexy.
when everything you do is sexy, you won't even need to have sex anymore. 
you will be sexier the further your behaviors and thoughts deviate from sex. 
sexless
nothingness
you can even deny all this.