you are sleeping
sweetly on my shoulder
and my love for you is like something
from a faerytale

ok. inability to rest. lj deities are beckoning. so much has transpired.

so i moved to canada, started grad school, got this hellish anti-real world living scenario, got this boyfriend... got my best friends and mother all over the continent, got this amotivational disorder. got this crazy drive to flee, almost all of these things, but mostly the ( Read more... )

living for the now
cause i have no stable ground
i leap from cloud to could
land, and they disintigrate around me.
there are only common themes of sugary rainbows
and toothache sunbeams
when what i want
is whole grain gardens
to nourish me endlessly
and wooden arms
that would rot around me
before they'd ever
let me fall
(i don't ever want
to be undergound)

i'm sick of having to invite myself places i should belong, and be wanted. with the company i'm trying to keep, i think the shock of solitude i'm about to receive will still be more pleasantly surprising and less disappointing than this. i concede. new york city and falsely professed love don't matter to me. the hard wood floor in the corner of my ( Read more... )

i'm so lucky, and happy; dumbfounded by my fate. sometimes you can dye your hair three colors in a month, only to settle on the color you adore, or some analogous scenario ( Read more... )

my hair is all curly kind of and sorta wild. a little disheveled, but soft, breezy, flat but buoyant.  this summer's been a wish, more of a whish. a whiiiissshhhh.  i should take a picture, or it makes me feel like getting fucked. but i'm alone. tonite. according to my plan, i have about a week left to be living here. there's a lot of details tied ( Read more... )

never try and throw a crazy girl a birthday party. she'll only attempt suicide in your baththub. it's a good way to summarize the deranged situation and psychological trauma i've been subjected to in my own home over the past 6 months. murder, affairs, jealousy, ungrateful, delusional women. and i work very hard waitressing and bartending just to ( Read more... )

i cant stop looking at jilleatsapples and her year long photo blog on flickr. im getting to know a lot about her. i know who her (ex) boyfriend is (i say this cuz last i knew he was dating a different girl, a russian jewish singer). he's in Peanut Brittle Satellite, a band i really like. i'm starting my own 365, but it wont be nearly as kitsch or ( Read more... )

"People have a right to be secure in their persons, houses, papers and effects. It's called the Fourth Amendment."

Behavioral Economics ( Read more... )