While I am very happy for my friends who are happily expecting their first "bundle of joy", i selfishly can't help but think... why me? Havent I gone through enough and proven that I am strong and can handle myself? Havent I seen enough sadness, anger, and regret to last me a life time? Apparently not. The entire time I was pregnant I wished that ( Read more... )

I can feel myself dying inside. Slowly, Im going numb. Nothing makes me truely happy. I go to visit the baby and for that one solitary hour I am blissfull..... and when I leave, well.... lets just say when I leave its just me and the captain. I almost got 1)into a fist fight with some 40 yr old fat bitch (I kind of wish she would come over again ( Read more... )

So, my car payment was due two days ago. My mom just mailed me 500 dollars to help me with the next two months payments, which I should get on Friday. After that Im really not quite sure what is going to happen. I will have to get rid of it, that much I know... but ARGH... shit sucks ( Read more... )

I can see just fine
You in my life
You by my side
As it start to fade
I know this cant be right
Stuck in this dream
A nightmare full of sorrow
Nightmare, full of pain.

I never thought I would have to visit someone in jail....

Especially not him.

Well.... I guess shit happens, hopefully it ends too.

The first two are in the hospital, the last 3 are when he was 20 days

( Baby Aiden )

So.... Friday ( Read more... )

... and sleep is definately difficult at times ( Read more... )

Well ( Read more... )

Liz: I am sorry that I didnt call you back, it was kind of a shitty day and heres why ( Read more... )