well, it has been awhile, hasn't it?  i have done alot of things since then, and not much of it is very becoming.  firstly, i have done nothing but my best to try and keep my head up, and stand tall...but i have come to find that that is quite hard, no matter how strong a chin or back you have ( Read more... )

the doctor gave  me a pot prescription, so i guess he thinks its okay for me, but just like any other med, you dont use it all the time.  would you take aspirin like it was candy?  no, so i dont smoke it like that.  i can count on one hand all the times i smoked pot this year, and the year is more than half way over ( Read more... )

i have just got the most awesome version of fire fox in the world!!!  no, you must sit down if you ever try to dl  Firefox 4.0.  it used to be beta, and i am sure that it will have more upgrades to come, but i can not tell you how effn cool this browser is.  it is cooler than a polar bears finger nail.  yeah, that cool ( Read more... )

i am not getting high, i am just dosing my self with benadryl so i dont freak out, and go to sleep faster ( Read more... )

get crystal a bomb ass anniversary gift, and a very nice birthday gift, cus i know when i get to that time of year i will have no money, but in may i am supposed to have tons of money from my pell grant.  so i have to like get really a really good grade in math, which i am fairly sure i will get, god permeting, but i dont think i will fail because ( Read more... )

So the wine i made a few days ago was a success, and yes, it did give me the shits ( Read more... )

oh you can try to live in darkness kid ( Read more... )

crap.

i really think that i have to go to the hospital.  i've been thinking horrible thoughts for quite some time now...being implusive, stealing, eating things that i shouldnt..crap.  i just feel so lousy, ya know.  i just dont feel the same anymore.  i dont know myself anymore, just pure craziness

i'm certain of this.
and im not certian of

SO much pain, I mean like you would not believe ( Read more... )

i want to be a hippie ( Read more... )