as much as i'd like to say i did well today, i can't. it's like the end of the first week of me being back to restricting and whatnot, and already i'm fucking it up. know how many times i binged and purged today? four. once this morning, after eating three quarters of a homemade pizza i made when kim and i woke up this morning. again at work, ( Read more... )

Age: 18
H: 5'9
HW: 238
CW: 194
LW: 175
STGW: 175
LTGW: 140

yeah. i hate owning up to those stats. i can't believe i've let myself gain back nearly twenty pounds in the last two months. i was doing so well, too. *sigh* but i suppose i can't do anything about those two months. i can only change what happens in the future, and that's exactly what i plan on ( Read more... )

i hate the fact that i'm so horrible about keeping this journal. i mean, i want to write in it. it's just that i never think i have anything good to write about, and i'm pretty sure no one reads it. but, i really am going to keep this thing on a regular basis. it's much easier for me than keeping a written journal, and during the times i've used it ( Read more... )

i had a weird, but also strangely nice night last night. i couldn't sleep, so i was out on the front porch, reading a book and smoking a cigarette. it was like 3:30 am, and while i'm sitting there, my mom comes running on to the porch. apparently, she had been at our neighbor's house talking, and didn't realize how late/early it was. she thought it ( Read more... )

     so, unfortunately these past couple days have been less than great ( Read more... )

sooo...i realize i just posted, but i can't sleep now. i haven't posted pics in a while...so i figured i would. i dunno...really i'm just wondering if any of you can tell if i've lost weight in my face? i kinda think i have, but i'm wondering if it's just me. so....input would be greatly appreciated, haha.

The beginning of april...
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today, i ate ( Read more... )

so i'm wondering...does anyone here want to maybe be "texting buddies" with me? haha i know that sounds totally gay, but i really think it could help keep me on track. and i finally got unlimited texting on my phone (to anywhere in north america)....so if anyone is interested, let me know:-D stay strong, girls.

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Kara

so i'm sitting here eating low-fat cottage cheese and pineapple, and it's making me happy, because i'm thinking about how i totally avoided binging at about 4:00 this morning. as pathetic as it sounds...thankGod for _realthin, haha.

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Kara

      so i've been eating terribly, and it's all because of a boy. hopefully, though, i'll be able to stop. today i pretty much realized that i'm sabotaging all my hard work, and if i keep up this way, in the end i'm just going to end up far more depressed than i ever was in the first place. so tomorrow is a new day, and hopefully i'll be able to ( Read more... )