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The bravery of discovery
Time is such a special commodity. We find it precious and yet find ways to throw it away. My time is spent helping others and then feeling so sorry for myself that I can't do the same for me. Things will result that may resemble an avalanche and all I can say is "I warned myself", yet can't think that it will ever happen to me. All things happen, ( Read more... ) -
i dreams coming true
Finally, I have in my hands an iPad: mini of course. It was eventual, the longing for a book sized tablet that I could hold above me for hours while I wrote in the most relaxing way I know how. Part of me is convinced that this machine will allow me to start the next stage in my journey of life, more likely, help me finish writing the book I ( Read more... ) -
Obsession turns to purpose
I never thought I'd be one of those people. The one who can't stop thinking about an idol or movie star. I am not sure how these feelings are going to work for me but I had the thought that maybe this actor can help inspire a character for a book or story that I'd write. A part of my brain wants to generate a way to meet this person and explain ( Read more... ) -
Exercise problem
Well, I think about the gym all the time. I was thinking about taking the day off tomorrow but it makes me anxious to think about it. I am worried about these feelings of anxiety because I don't exercise, like I replaced using drugs with exercise. I suppose it is a good replacement but I will have to be aware if things get out of control. There is ( Read more... ) -
Inspiration in the halls
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The idea of sick coming real
There is something off in my body and it is making me feel ill. I will go home, rest under a blanket and figure out how to jailbreak my phone and try to do some homework. I would like to pick up some jeans too.
Gotsto go
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The idea of sick coming real
There is something off in my body and it is making me feel ill. I will go home, rest under a blanket and figure out how to jailbreak my phone and try to do some homework. I would like to pick up some jeans too.
Gotsto go
Posted via LiveJournal.app.
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Be okay with today
I have to be okay with today because other people are okay with me everyday. I am slowly learning what triggers my poor eating decisions and instead of saying "no, I should eat that" I say, " love yourself and be joyful because people love you too." I can live with that. I can live inside this body and strive for healthy and peace within me. There ( Read more... ) -
Vibrancy of life
I am about to see a friend I think I understand on some levels as long as the conversations do not get too complicated. On the other side I am yearning for the words to set my mind ablaze with thought and considerable concentration that ensues genuine exhaustation afterwards. When I find that kindred spirit in which I can converse, argue and debate ( Read more... ) -
How do I do that?
Last night Milan told me that I deserve to do whatever I want including having a hobby. I want to enjoy gardening but I feel so overwhelmed. I'm making excuses. I should get up, pull the plants that have died and replant from seed some herbs I want to bring inside for the winter. I also want to read up on how to prevent the herbs from dying because ( Read more... )