i'm so sick and tired of
writing songs about you.

this is it, this is the end.

 i feel worthless.
i wish i could move on as easily as she did.

So what if I waited for you...
Would I be wasting my time, 
or should I catch the next flight to the
farthest distance from our memories
And stay there until I am able to breathe

I'll keep on smoking
and this High Life is showing me
I'm not in love...with you
But as soon as I'm sober than this ( Read more... )

fuck.
i keep posting the same thing over and over.
but i can't help it.
its all i think about.
i just wish i would have done things differently.
gave her everything she deserved and more.

hopefully the next guy can do what i couldn't.

and hopefully i'll meet someone that even
comes close to what you are to me.

i have nothing left to lose.

i lost my girl, lost my job...

i'm done.
fuck off.

i want to be your everything.
i wish i could take it all back.
i never meant to make you cry.
you were the best thing thats ever happened to me.
the only thing i've ever gotten right in my life.

and i fucked it up.
and now i'm a wreck.
i don't blame you for any of it.
i'm just an idiot and don't know how to hold on
to the things i care about

i'm going to stop posting on livejournal

i have too many feelings.
one day i say one thing, then the next day its completely different.

therefore, this journal will be gone.

i'm happy.
i'm excited.
i'm nervous
i'm heartbroken
i'm angry
i'm an asshole
i regret alot
but i've learned.
now i start over the right way.
its my turn to be loved.

goodbye.

forget everything i said in the last entry.

i dont want to be alive anymore.

100% serious and positive

 I finally love life.

i have the best friends ever.
i couldn't ask for a better girlfriend.
and every night is a damn blast. 
its been a looooong time since i was this happy.

but on a sad note, i find out tomorrow if my stepmom 
has cancer or not. hopefully its nothing. 

why is it that i get pissed off over the smallest little things that don't even matter.

but when something that actually matters happens and everyone else is freaking
out for me, i let it slide.

all i do is ruin shit.

i want to do something right.