Scream into my pillow versus commenting on the "moneyed white male" basically wearing a billboard encouraging disenfranchised poor people to approach him.

Sometimes it's good to post where no one sees. I don't mind not being his boyfriend. I do miss feeling close to him.

i don't know how to do it. i think i could've gone home with him. i don't want casual. i'm so trying to figure me out. it's almost a decade of my life. i don't know how to be single. i sorta want to. they are cute and too young. i want a partner. who gets me. que sera sera

As for you, my galvanized friend, you want a heart! You don't know how lucky you are not to have one. Hearts will never be practical until they can be made unbreakable”- Wizard of Oz,to the tin man

promises... they don't work so well. trying to be what people need and losing me in the process. i want to be angry and loud.... but i see those people and it just seems silly. like a tantrum. i don't know the balance with expressing real needs and trying to blend in.

done. tired of being held hostage by the past. 5 years with someone else and all i can do is look over my shoulder at someone who treats me like shit. done. removed contact. don't want to know. all the best.

u were my heart.
i manage just fine
so close
and no...
hurts
that
we aren't
close
friends.
feel like
we should be
maybe
more fool me.

wish it was simple again. too much going on.

and i got so busy waiting for a yes.
waiting for you to
approve
who i was
what i want...
needed
that i lost my
voice
i need it..
back
and i'm not
borrowing anymore
mine
simple...
but mine

"and maybe it was about waking up again...a clarity and freshness and being able to appreciate desire for desire's sake. it's complicated. even if we pretend it isn't, but i guess that's okay. if the trade off is not getting to play now and then, i guess i'll have to take complicated. it isn't quite love. i'm not sure what it is ( Read more... )