Ive lost every single friend ive ever had. Ive lost my ability to compose myself. Ive lost my will to live. Ive lost my ability to thrive. Ive lost my happiness. Ive lost my determination. If it wasnt for my babies, id have been gone a long time ago. What do you do when you realize your life is worthless? I have to just clutch onto my children for ( Read more... )

I check your Facebook every day just to make sure you're still miserable, lonely, and pathetic. Yep, all is well! I try not to carry any hatred or regrets, but I keep hoping that one day I'll hear that you died in a car crash or ended your pathetic life. I left a good guy for you, and you ended up being the biggest mistake I ever made. I hope you ( Read more... )

There's a crazy feeling with mental health issues. It's that moment in time when you completely understand that everything you're freaking out about and everything that you're doing to yourself is completely unnecessary, but you have no ability, or maybe no desire, to stop. You continue to cry and scream and panic. Your heart still continues to ( Read more... )

Well, great job on making me feel important. The one day of the year where he could actually show that I'm worth anything to him as a mother. The one day where he can take the time to show that he respects me and appreciates me as the mother of his children and he literally does nothing. Says that he'll get my present later. Couldn't even get me a ( Read more... )

Well, I decided to stay a manager! And my bosses are amazing and they're giving me a couple of months to step back and get my mental health together. They're checking me out of my store next week and letting me help out while I get myself together. I wish things were simple again 😔

Well, I got a new job today as a server at Texas Roadhouse. It's an unbelievably hard decision to make giving up 50k a year to go back to working two jobs as a server. But it's something I've got to do. Hopefully I'll be back to school this fall 😍

What do you do when you're not sure where to go in life? Do I step down at work? Do I stay? Do I go? Do I even know what I want? It's always harder when you have mental problems and you don't know if you're really in a spot where you need to change your life or if you are just depressed because of nothing. I keep thinking about the past. Thinking ( Read more... )

I look back on all my journal entries and see how much life has changed. Suddenly, it's six years in and you don't know where life has taken you to. Suddenly you look back at the could of would of should ofs. My career is blossoming, my sons are amazing, but I feel like I'm so unhappy with the way life is. What happened? How does life go from so ( Read more... )

Hello world that no longer has anyone involved in it ( Read more... )

I had my monthly "cry for an hour for no reason" moment ( Read more... )