Im so confused about everything its sick, I wrote that story today bout that lil girl and only let katie read it, Sebi is in 2 of mah classes..yeah I know, I told manda i carved a 4 in my leg and we got into this fight about how she quit and shit but when i quit she kept going in the great words of Neil "Well dont mind me saying so but shes a ( Read more... )

On friday August 13th I cut again 6 times across my wrist and tonight I was talking to manda and her new hunny Josh*lol* and I played hold on and we all got depressed, I wanted to cut again, Josh was gunna kill himself, and Manda was all blehh. I swear to god it was the first time I cried in so long, Josh and manda both know theres something wrong ( Read more... )

I have officially lost my muthafuckin mind!!! CONGRATS TO ME!! I dont feel good I been listening to music lik Crawling/One Step Closer/Linkin Park, Hold On/Good Charlotte, and yea u get it Blah I dont feel good im blah ( Read more... )

This goes to any one who read what I wrote yesterday ( Read more... )

I kno no one is gunna look at this so Im gunna say wuts really wrong with me, I feel so sad and lonely but I hide it behind my smiles and no one notices, I started thinking about how my life used to be before I was different when i didnt have to care about anything when I didnt care about n e thing when i cud do whatever i wanted when me n darius ( Read more... )

dude I had a fucked up dream, my baby did something and i gave him 3 wishes and he wished for me to screw him then #2 was to love him 4ever and #3 was for 5 more wishes, then he wished for shit lik faygo, care bears dads old cadillac, pizza ice cream me a new shirt that says i love ryan it was fucking weird man then me n ryan had some fun *wink ( Read more... )

Hey Yall Its Crystal,
I love Ryan sooo much hes my everything, even tho hes my half brother me n him got the same dad :( I still love him I love how he makes me laugh and just talking to him can make me so happy god he makes me horny too!! haha love u baby! well imma go b4 mom aka blade catches me :)

LOVE YALL!!

CrYsTaL

Im bored man crystal n ryan r tlkin i swear i think they still love each other, i cud be wrong...haha i doubt it but u never kno, i mite be going to ash's then to nties tonite, buck buck man buck buck im so freakin bored its not even funny, it sux for crystal n ryan if they do love each other cuz they r brother n sister man, who knows tho not me, n ( Read more... )

Ello OncE Again peoples, how are you all :) yes i actually care lol Im bored and tired so imma end up going to sleepy after this song is over...you kno something inside me is screaming to just jumo out my window and run for my life just for the hell of it, but last time i jumped out the window in the middle of the nite just for the hell of it I got ( Read more... )

Im bored....I have nothing to do Im sitting here singing which sounds horrible....and im looking in the mirror SHUT UP ASH IM NOT VAIN! lol and i see the ugly person ive seen since i was old enuf to think and understand my thoughts I just feel like getting up going outside and running, just running until i get somewhere or until i just cant run ( Read more... )