the days have gone wild as life sustains against the winds of misconduct

good god yall

i have drank/ slept/ lived/ and died over and over again

my convictions are convicted

and here i am in a room lit by the relfection of the snow

finding an old friend

where i am comfortably alone

i am drunk, as most nights often i find myself. painfully, my nostalgia has been pressing on my heart. this may be my midlife crisis at my young age. i fear my story may be short. i have regressed, my descent into what i was in the year 2005. i find peace on the deck of a home, staring out into the night with an ember burning at the end of my ( Read more... )

i don't know if anyone still reads this.

but goddamn...

i wish i wasn't the only one still writing in it...

i miss you all...

but i'm to scared to call.

i left my retail warehouse. my lower back holding in the aching of a good part of a years work. feeling one way going into the job, the opposite leaving it.

came home, poured the same goddamn glass of whiskey, and ate the cold leftovers.

my stomach is fucked as usual, i'm worked ragged. and i miss my dog.

R.I.P. Sandy Breen

my wallet may be empty but i'm rich in character.

life is a shit sandwich... eat it or starve to death.

so i had this dream lastnight where tom waits and i were out in colombia or somewhere looking to score drugs with a local fella wearing a leisure suit...long story short, we stumbled onto a black market organ harvesting operation. they shot us in one limb each. the dream ended with tom (we are on a first name basis from now on.) handing out pain ( Read more... )

today is one of my first days off home alone... don't know if i like it yet. usually when meghan and i are both off from work on the same days we get drunk, play video games and watch movies, which is all good and fun but i haven't made a single drawing since the semester ended, and if i go back to kim from break without any work she'll rip off my ( Read more... )

got my first pay check for 5 hours worth of work last week. whats worse i'm not getting my next check until after christmas... this makes me sad. everyone who is getting a present this christmas, is getting it on new years ( Read more... )