yea, long time no update, bla bla bla.... it seems like i cant ever talk about anything to anyone without them looking at me like im an idiot, or them just politely listening never actually feeling one ounce of concern or interest in what i have to say. i figure that i will just keep my mouth shut from now on, like that will actually happen, i ( Read more... )

so...its been a while hasnt it? ja.... things are interesting, not really in a great way, but when are things ever great? currently im reading the Chronicles of Narnia, i am on the 6th book (there are 7 for those of you who dont know). they are good books. the movie was kick ass! i cant wait for the others to come out, they are making them in ( Read more... )

so yesterday was weird. it wouldve been nice if it werent for the circumstances. although there still managed to be some laughs, a lot actually, which is ok. i vowed not to cry, but that failed when they did the 21 gun salute, which was the first thing they did. my grandma cried then too, but thats kind of a duh. the woman singing kinda sucked ( Read more... )

things around here are still pretty hectic. Grandma wants us to go over all the time, which is fine, she needs us. Saturday we are having a service thing at Grandma and Grandpa's church, there are supposed to be a lot of people there. Family that i havent seen in years (most of them, some i saw this summer). I havent really cried yet, and i ( Read more... )

last night my Grandpa died. he had been suffering for a while and as much as i loved him im glad he isnt in pain anymore. we spent a few hours at my Grandparents house cleaning and talking. mom and i came home to take a nap, obviously im not sleeping at the moment. i wish i had seen my Grandpa more often when he wasnt so sick, but i cant change ( Read more... )

i have discovered that i am very depressed. i cant seem to get out of it, it sucks. i know that eventually i will be happier, but i dont think it will happen anytime soon. thats ok though, i will pull through. my back itches.....there, all better. i think i am sick, but i cant go to the doctor because i am not covered by my dads insurance, it ( Read more... )

well its two days til christmas...yay!!! i love christmas, and no its not just the presents...i like the look on peoples faces when i give them something good. its kinda a gift in and of its self. im at the apt tonight (and last night) and i am going back home tomorrow afternoon, for its christmas eve and mom would probably kill me if i didnt go ( Read more... )

so today started with the downstairs neighbor blaring his music at 7:30 this morning. luckily i rolled over and went back to sleep....til freaking 1. i wanted to get up a little earlier, but that didnt happen. oh well. Liesel is still asleep, she is a hard sleeper man, i cant wake her for shit. Its snowing really hard and has been since 2. i ( Read more... )

well tomorrow is thanksgiving, time to eat a shit-ton of food. good food, except for the turkey, its usually dry. but i have come up with a solution for that (my family doesnt do gravy for some reason), i take a bite of turkey, and then take a drink of tea or water, those are what i usually drink on turkey day. my mom is making the green bean ( Read more... )

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