its funny how some things end. no not really funny, but sad. i never even saw it coming...wow am i that easy to throw away? and looking back there are so many things i should have done differently. is it for the best? ill never know.... i dont even know how everything happpend? it was so fast and so easy for them, what is it about me that people ( Read more... )

HAPPTY THANKSGIVING!!! woo hoo i think that i have gained ummm like 20 pounds and the day is not even over yet! AHHH no im not really happy about it lol but it is expected on thanksgiving. tahts ok tho because i have found out that i am the best worst bowler ever! if anyone thinks that they can take me at being the best worst bowler bring it on ( Read more... )

Look at you with your teenage hard-on, look at you with your black lace bra on. Look at you, check you out. Look at you with your big black sunglasses, look at you with your pre-ripped jeans. Look at you, check you out. Look at you with your tweed purse, look at you with your quoted t-shirt. Whats the deal? What the fuck? yeah right........shut up ( Read more... )

AHHHHHHHH! Dance concert tonight, dont go! we suck hossibly, so scary! i really dont want to even dance! grrrrrr

im going out of town this weekend with my entire huge, crazy family to rocky point where we are going to have a mexican fiesta, and drink our selves stupid! oh boy i can't wait! some cousins of mine that i miss and haven't seen for a long time should be there, and that's good because i can always talk to them and tell them anything. no matter how ( Read more... )

haha of course girls are stupid! rumors are stupid and people that beleive everything they hear through other stupid bitches are STUPID! poor girls. its sux to be those ones. especially the ones who feed off drama and create it just because they can, and hey why not it makes someone else look worse than me?  even if its not true and will end a ( Read more... )

everything is just getting worse for me. and i feel like such a whiney annoying person when i say that but i miss haveing everything be ok, i forgot what it was like to have things be ok and for a while they were. but it seems like everythin changed in a week and it just keeps going downhill, i dont even want to know what the bottom will be like ( Read more... )

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!?! WHY DO I FUCK EVERYTHING UP? i can never just let my self be happy!

I love to get hurt, and to hurt other people and i dont even know why? if its not pain its not like a real emotion to me just an imitation.

Hello! today isnt half as bad as the last ones....wooh its kinda releiving actaually. i think i could have been able to do that again....all the drama n stuff. but that doesnt mean things are good exactly. im still pretty sad. all day i wasnt myself, i even wore my hair up ~which i never do~ i just dont have the feeling that everythin will be ( Read more... )

i was happy..... of course....... i wish it wasnt harder for me...and i feel stupid to even say it is...but it is.... maybe i was just dumb to feel wanted....it was easier for me when i could just expect for everything to be so helpless but of course life has to show me that maybe things dont have to be bad all the time and than bring me back to ( Read more... )