well yeah i dont even know whats goin on with me? im tryin to sort things out, everything just seemed to hit at one time. things have ended and things have started, and ive missing old life styles, but im scared of them too. and the more i think about the way i used to live the more i get to missing old feelings, and the more i want them and the ( Read more... )

hmm yeah i couldnt sleep last night i think i got like two hours of sleep? weird but i dont really feel like sleeping. and food is so gross, and why would i say that? me? i love to eat? its the best thing ever, and i dont know it just seems gross to me latly. and today i felt so dizzy and sick all day, i probably just have the flu or sumthing but ( Read more... )

there is just way to much going on this week, really it was the worst timing finalls....i just cant focus with everything changing like it is....and my head hurts all the time and i cant breath, stupid lungs, and stupid ashma,i hate hospitals buts its freakin leading to that again i know it, every danm year. ugh i cant deal with another one of ( Read more... )

ok so yeah i must be bipolar haha because i am sooo happy today its great! i think i am actually the happiest ive been in like two months. i forgot how much i love to be single, and flirt, and not have any ties to anybody. im my own person and i can do what i want when i want its the best! and its only the first day i cant wait to see what the next ( Read more... )

it was so close to christmas......and how am i suposed to just take someones presents back? i wish i would have known and wouldnt have wasted all that time wondering what the perfect gift was. ive lost one of my best friends, thats what probably hurts the mose. they were naieve to say we should still be friends. itll never be the same, to be honest ( Read more... )

Its taken all this time for me to realise what you mean to me, if i had one more chance i would take it all back just to show you i cant live without you, tear my world apart if only i could make this right, theres nothing i want more, theres nothing i want more than just to be with you...........

omg ive just done something i wish i could take ( Read more... )

Latly i wish i was a lot of thing..........smart, funny, pretty, nice..............stupid things like that, but most of all i wish i could be happy. i always look for happiness in the wrong places, in the wrong people, in the wrong ways...... i duno what happend. i used to be happy. really genuinly happy for a long time, and yeah some things i did ( Read more... )

SUCH A LONG WEEKEND!!!grr i hate the cold! its is satan and should go to hell where it belongs! and if Disney Land is the happiest place on earth than why was i so UNHAPPY at it all day....hmm oh yeah because it was effin freezing! i even bought a scarf because it was soo cold...(and its really cute so thats like the one good thing that happend). ( Read more... )

Jonathan has the PRETTIEST and the BESTEST car EVER!!!!

and i will miss everone this weekend cause im goin to DISNEY LAND! but sad because i dont get to go to the game............

So on a lighter note Whitney got new snowboots. hahahaha!!! and i patched things up with someone i would have missed horribly! mostly still tryin to make things better, i hope they can see that i really didnt mean what i said!!!!