Big surprise, another one of my "perfect" relationships is running its self into the ground. I've quite seriously given up on Abe and his ability to think, let alone be a considerate human being for more then five minutes out of every day ( Read more... )

This is the second time in the 5 or 6 weeks I've been going to school that I have woken up late to my classes for Wednesday. I think it has a lot to do with stressing out about being the only person without their assignment completed ( Read more... )

Tonight Abe wanted to take me out on a date. Which was really an awesome idea because about a week ago i had gotten down, or a little upset, because we hadn't gone out just the two of us for a good while ( Read more... )

I wanted to post but dont really have anything I want to say ( Read more... )

After at least five years on this damn thing my spelling has not really improved. Ha ( Read more... )

But will he ever know that? no, not really. It's not like we've been sitting alone in this room for 5min, at least, not talking, I've just been responding to posts and emails. The first time I open my fucking mouth to say anything to him at all, and he didn't hear what I said. Oh wait, it's exactly like that, ha... ah, silly me ( Read more... )

I don't want to be late to work for writting this so I suppose at some point I'll just stop, leave it as is, since I'm coming home tonight. I hate saying "Coming home" this still doesn't feel like home to me. IT feels like a place to dump my shit and run. I can't relax here, I can't just feel chill here because..... I don't even know why. I keep it ( Read more... )

I walked right into a spoiler. Now I'm sad!

The physical pain is enough to remind me of the choice that I made. I'm not regretting it, I haven't before I did it, and not now after. But I'm glad that I can suffer for this... that despite no longer having tears to shed, I have this body to feel the pain and the weight of my actions.

To remind me to never get here again. Ever.

I have an appointment on friday ( Read more... )