So it turns out that even the nicest guys can be assholes. I pretty much give up on ever finding a truly nice guy. So me and chas have been debating whether or not we should take a break all week and I pretty much cried every week and it was so hard on me. So friday morning we decide to take a two week break (that will start sunday). Well that ( Read more... )

So things have been weird lately. Vday was a few days ago and chas did so much sweet stuff and it was really good. but from then till now I feel like we have been growin apart and are startin to loose that flame. It makes me sad and i find myself crying every time we hang up the phone. It doesnt help I keep having bad dreams about chris and such. ( Read more... )

So these past few weeks have been amazing. Ive had winterim which has just been awesome. I havent done shit school wise and have been comin home at 12 everyday and taking a nap. Literally it is the best thing to ever happen to me. Things are really good with chas. He just makes me so happy and I just want to tell him so bad how much I love him. I ( Read more... )

oh man i havent updated this thing in forever. I cant sleep tonight so i need something to do. So wow a lot has happened in the past month. I have been seeing chas almost every day and just really fallen for him. He just makes me happy and i love to be around him. He is so freakin sweet to me and our relationship is basically the kind i have always ( Read more... )

So last night was just horrible. Me and Chris were suppose to hang out so he finally text messages me at like 10 sayin if i want to see him i can come to some guys house. so thats when i ended things. he never responded though. I feel kinda bad but wtv he was a jerk and i refuse to let guys do that to me. So wtv. I didnt cry all today so i guess ( Read more... )

i know its been a while but i just seem to be too tired to ever update. Im tryin to break up with chris because I am not going to let guys treat me like shit any more. However, its not going to well cause he isnt responding to my text. I miss alex so much some times. I miss being so in love and just having that someone. Id do anything to have that ( Read more... )

So i was way too tired to write this wehn it happend but chris told me he wanted to be in a relationship!! so that means we are officialy together. and I am soo excited to see him tonight. He was like I really want to go on a good fun date with you. And my mom is out of town tonight so I am going to try to get him to spend the night. I am soo ( Read more... )

SO after i recoverd from my traumatic friday night I realized that I could care less about him. I guess I just needed to get a good cry out. Chris has been callin me every day and bein so sweet and stuff so yay to that! 4 months ago today I met chris. We have been together longer than I was with Alex. Speaking of alex, he sent me an email today. It ( Read more... )

Chris just told me kevin is seeing another girl. I cried so hard. I am so upset. I liked him so much and was so hopeful. Why the fuck does this always happen to me. I want alex back so bad. I want that feeling back so bad. I am however going to stand up for myself and not let him fuck me over like this. I AM going to be strong. This explains so ( Read more... )

So the last few days I have been so sick. I threw up and fainted and had to go to the hospital and get an IV pumped in me. It was really scary and awful. So today I got to school and cried in the parking lot. Then cried in study hall and I will probably cry again tonight. I dunno I am sick of feeling bad but I am also so sick of the whole Kevin ( Read more... )