Mary Smith, age 77, of Maumee Ohio, died peacefully on Wednesday, August 24, 2005 ( Read more... )

well, I just got home. yeah, it's 4:19 am....and yeah, I need to unwind. A 6 mile walk down relatively well used, yet secluded roads will bring you to the point of physical exhaustion....and mental-hmmm...petrification...yeah, that's a good word for it. Normally, it wouldn't be so bad, but when you're already having a panic attack....and you're ( Read more... )

Well, thursday, I ended up getting my check...and going back home. Brooke came out to get me around 4ish, and we went into whitehouse. I got to see my lil boys (trev, max, brett, and justin) and paige, and ross....it was lots of fun. I got 3 rolls of film developed...and took one more up to rite aid in waterville....shit, I need to go get them ( Read more... )

I had this dream. I was sleeping so peacefully, that I was actually having a nice dream. I dremt that john was laying next to me...and I was so happy. Immagine my feeling when I woke up...and looked to in my arms only to find a couple pillows and a stuffed moose. I was one sad tiffy

so umm...yeah...last friday...john and I were gonna go to a movie...right? well...I made him promise not to stand me up...and well...he didn't. he just let aaron talk him into a double with him and mindy. God knows I wasn't going to go for that...so he didn't tell me. When I saw that fuckin Kia though...I got pissed. They parked at the road ( Read more... )

I don't even know where to begin. How about a few questions...Do you realize how much you mean to me? Do you know how badly you hurt me and pissed me off last night? Do you realize you've lost my trust through this? Do you know what it's like to worry about someone-not even knowing whether or not they're safe ( Read more... )

MusicAddict51782 [2:04 AM]: what would you say to him if you could say anything ( Read more... )

They say you don't realize what you've got till it's gone...honestly, that's not what I'm feeling right now. I'm feeling empty. Every moment I spent with john was like having a piece of heaven with me. I treasured every second. I found out what happiness was all about. Being with John made me feel on top of the world. I never felt like I wasn ( Read more... )

I've had the shittiest day...and you know...it's not gonna get any better...so deal with it....I'm just....grrr....beyond bitchy....and no one should have to deal with me. As john says "life sucks...then you die" I wish something would come along and kill me....I don't even care at this point if it's a slow agonizing death....it's gotta be better ( Read more... )

If I were a month I would be: March.. Snow...rain...cold...icky ( Read more... )