i live in newport beach california (the OC, bitches) moving to arizona (the middle of nowhere) but, it is an hour from vegas. im trying to get my life straightend out because i realized how crazy its getting.

wish me luck cause im going to need it.

im not lying about this:
somebody tried to moleste me at my friends house. i obviously stopped him but then freaked out & went in to another room not thinking about grabbing my purse & then he stole my camera. what an asshole my camera was sooooooo nice too & i didnt even have it or over a month. what a jerk. i dont know whatelse to say but, im ( Read more... )

i did horrible on my interview today i was so nervous it was ridiculous! but you know whatever!!!

besides that i want a new tattoo ♥

LETS JUST STOP ALL THE BULLSHIT & END ME NOW

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♥ you never - the RENinatorrrr

i am probably doing one of the bravest things i have ever done in my life, later today. i feel like im doing the right thing even though im having major second thoughts about it. i refuse to give up or give in & i love him way too much that im going to put my pride & all my fears & doubts about us aside and hope that he forgives me & loves me just ( Read more... )

this past year was really really difficult. i lost my first cousin & a nephew. the person i could probably spend the rest of my life with wants nothing to do with me. my mom is going through surgery because they found something that could be cancerous. everyone that graduated my year in highschool is already getting their degrees & you guessed it ( Read more... )

im so glad this year is coming to an end but im not looking forward to a new year either. i think im need of another vacation. it's just my way of running from my problems & it seems to be working out just fine. i dont understand how i can love this place but at the same time being here just kills me.

so much for the holidays

SORRY ITS BEEN SO LONG LJ BUT MYSPACE IS SOFA KING ADDICTING

hhahah last night we had a bbq for my cousin fina's birthday. drank jager & jack. it was great. note to self: YOU CANNOT PLAY POKER FOR SHITTT. ♥ ♥ we had the funniest conversations. random things i found out last night ♥

.if youre going to do it up the ass, take a shit first cause ( Read more... )

I'm still in San Diego.

I was supposed to be home since June 20th. I stayed longer so I could see someone off but he left & i didnt even get a "I'll see you later!" but, whatever I'm over it. & then i was going to leave again on July 10th, 21st, 30th, & now it's August 5th. Which is fine with me, my cousin keeps telling me to just stay but, I ( Read more... )

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its a pretty graphic journal. if youre added its up to you if you want to add me back if not. get over it. it has nothing to do with how close we are or what kind of relationship we have. i just want to be as open with myself as possible & i dont feeel like i can do that with everyone.

i still love you though, ♥ ♥ ♥