A couple weeks ago I may have wrote that life was shitty and people are impractical. Well, I still agree. Life can be shitty and people will make the monkey wrench look like it can score higher on standardized testing. That isn't in my world though, and after a couple months of drooling on paperwork while spending many nights harmoniously picking ( Read more... )

This weekend I am going to Asheville to visit a friend I met a while back. I am really going to see the campus though because I had originally wanted to go there but I made the mistake of trusting my parent's judgment and now I am paying for every cent of it. I know I will be doing a lot of traveling and working this year. There are a few different ( Read more... )

People won't let go when they say they will. It is a plain and simple fact about human nature, that is natural for us to grasp something that we think will save us, those being closest to us or maybe even ideals that we think would generate some sort of happiness in our lives. I have had to let go. I never really had a choice in the matter. In come ( Read more... )

Unfortunately I ask myself this after so much of what has happened, how could I have been so stupid? Its not that I feel sorry for myself because it is so much more than that. It's more along the lines of questioning when I am going to find someone I can trust, someone who does not have strings attached to them like distance or self destructive ( Read more... )

There is a secret hidden in this sentence. I would tell you, but then it wouldn't be a secret now would it?

Relationships are retarded. So many people have this mentally detached framework about them that it seems the only way to ever really make any difference is to punch their retarded faces. I am not saying I am any better and god forbid I say this again that some things just suit some people...but...yea. I keep forgetting that I was raised by ( Read more... )

I honestly don't really care whether or not you make through next semester or not. I won't speak maliciously but I will say the sad thing is I don't think you could even handle a healthy relationship. But good luck, it starts with you and ends with you, and as fucked up as you are...something will probably work out because even the cretans managed ( Read more... )

and filming it. Let you know more when I get back. I need more friends on this damn thing, and for that matter more friends in general.
Had another odd helpless dream last night.
Guess that means someone is doing something they promised they wouldn't.
who knows?

and filming it. Let you know more when I get back. I need more friends on this damn thing, and for that matter more friends in general.
Had another odd helpless dream last night.
Guess that means someone is doing something they promised they wouldn't.
who knows?

I don't know if anyone reads these journal entries anymore. Today, I don't know. Everything piled onto me again and this time succeeded in crushing me. I realized how alone I am, why I hated this place so much...and suddenly to realize after that there was nothing I could do to keep or expect anything from my friends from Pembroke. I have never ( Read more... )