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Starting today I'm making a new resolution. No more getting involved with guys who have girlfriends. No more meaningless sex that becomes meaningful. As much I don't want to close my heart to love and romance, its the only way to stop the bleeding and carry on. I need to remake myself if I'm going to get what I want from this world. I won't allow ( Read more... ) -
I'm going to get back into journaling...
I've been obsessed with grey's anatomy lately and in the show Meridith finds boxes full of her mother's journals up in her closet after her mother passes away. And it got me thinking how someday, when I have a daughter, I would like to have boxes full of journals for her to read so she could know me as I am now. I dreamed about frank today again. I ( Read more... ) -
Inception
I went to see inception with my brother and his girlfriend today. The movie was good, but it made me sad. I've noticed most movies make me think about him. Probably becuase most movies have love at least as a minor theme. Maybe I should stop watching movies. After that day we redevouzed I had to start all over again. Even still I would do it again ( Read more... ) -
Breathe- Anna Nalick
I swear music is my therapy. Everytime I'm falling down my tracks are there to lift me up. They are my family and my closest friends. And I'm sure that I can survive anything with my playlist and a cold shower. Right now I feel this incredible peace and comfort as I lay here alone waiting to leave for work, listening to dido and alanis morrisette ( Read more... ) -
Guitar lesson
Today I'll go for my first guitar lesson down on tiogue. Then I'm off to the beach to chase lightning. Or swim. Or something. The point is I'm living my life and I'm making living a point. I showed up for court today and apparently his attorney has requested a continuance. So I get to wait in suspense for another week, before maybe, just maybe this ( Read more... ) -
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So I'm trying to get back into journaling. I'm going through a bit of a tough time right now and I think it'd be healthy for me to try to write. Maybe if I type how I feel, the feelings can reside somewhere outside of myself and I won't have to carry them around with me ( Read more... ) -
I had some deep thought a moment ago where did they all go?
So it's a B-E-A-U-tiful spring day at last and I'm about to go hiking/biking with my wonderful significant other. The amazing thing about winter...is that it's ends. Somehow after months of icy cold and wet snow the sun comes back out again. The seasons represent life in many ways to me, they go in cyles and are ever changing the same as our ( Read more... ) -
White flag?
I feel as though I'm captain of a sinking sink. An ocean storms around me and the waters are deep and sparkling, blue and green and crested white. I try with all my sea savy to man this ship, to keep it sailing through the water, but slowly the hull is giving and both astern and abow floods. And I don't know exactly what to do. Should I raise the ( Read more... ) -
Can't think of a subject
It's been a while since I've made a post so it seemed overdue. The insanity of the semester is finally over. I ended up with a few b's; they sting but toward the end the best I could manage was damage control. It's been a rough few months and I'm still feeling a little feeling frayed. However, I sense the opportunity to be happy again and I can't ( Read more... ) -
Branches and Empty Spaces
So here I am again, standing at a crossroads with winds of change blowing dramatically around me. It seems that no matter where I go in my life I always return to this place- an eternal autumn, chilly and desolate and open, stripped bare of my possessions and direction. Life is cyclic, it comes together and falls apart. And when all the leaves die ( Read more... )