this is just it ( Read more... )

i'm not much into the sharing of my personal life on the internet anymore. i guess i just feel there's no need to fake my happiness or to share details. i'm just as confused as ever. i'm taking baby steps to figure myself out. i am starting to wear thin though and that sucks. so much stress is tied in with starting over. i know i'll be fine because ( Read more... )

I know not too many people still read this thing and I don't blame them but I feel the need to rant and rave for a few. Don't worry it isn't all negative ( Read more... )

it has become increasingly difficult for me to accept certain things i thought didn't bother me. i know those days are long over with but what has played out kinda sucks. i just want to write everything out in detail and just express my feelings....but it is just best i don't. it just hurts that i was made out to be some monster of a person/ ( Read more... )

how do i fix this?
i am so uneasy.

not a single person has a heart anymore.
i'm convinced that this is so.
what happened?
or has it always been this way?

and if i could swim, i'd swim out to you in the ocean

my hopes, dreams, goals, wants, and needs no longer matter.

i raised my flag up into your heart
you let the winds come tear it apart

i have given all i can. i know there are people who may think i am being dramatic and that i am holding him back. well if that's what you really think.....stay the fuck away from me. there's a problem when i get a total of 7 hours of sleep in a whole weekend, and i spend majority of my time awake crying my eyes out. the hurt i have felt has ( Read more... )