him: "how would you feel about paying rent together?"
me: "like. living together?"
him: "yeah."

...

i'm so terrified. i'm terrified we will crumble if we lived together.
like my last relationship did.
and that ripped me apart when we mutually ended it the first time.
i drank for nine months straight.
gained 30 pounds.
laid in bed on weekends.
and had ( Read more... )

there will be a decision whether or not my mother and her siblings will take their father (my grandpa) off life support. is it bad that i'm trying to cope with this by thinking my mother is being dramatic and he will be completely fine. because, you know, she called me this morning saying 'he opened his eyes.'
...i may be booking a ticket to georgia ( Read more... )

i wrap my arms around his torso with the wind in my hair as we fly down the roads on his motorcycle. i fold my arms on his shoulder blades and block my face from the sun. "i'm not really good with phone conversations. but i want to call to tell you i miss you..." that sentence being said erases the warmth of the sun on my face but digs deep ( Read more... )

how many times have i hit the " <------- backspace" button since writing [trying] my expressions ( Read more... )

financial situations like to bite me. hard ( Read more... )

it feels good to feel this settling. and it feels good to be reading. and it feels good to see the city ( Read more... )

is it really this normal to fear death? and in irony, not doing anything to protect yourself from it?

my hair is tossy. i run my fingers through it and i feel soft. all together, just not the hair ( Read more... )

the oven scares the living shit out of me. flour, sugar, baking powder/soda-anything along the lines of mixing dry & wet ingrediants are terrifying ( Read more... )

i had a mental breakdown after i awoke this morning. i curled up in my bed, sat at the edge of my bed and had my face in my hands constantly wiping off last nights make up.
i don't know where it came from.
i worry way too much.
i didn't have a bad dream.
i kept pushing my cat away.

i found out an old best friend of mine got hit by a car and they had to ( Read more... )