I dunno I've been thinking . . . I really want to become serious in the industry of underground modeling but I find it difficult to make a real effort towards my goal to become successful in the industry. I keep thinking about Giz . . that's what I always think about. I know if I do enter it head on he won't be there anymore. It hurts me so much ( Read more... )

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Good bye to 2003. Thank g0d for that. A new year . . . who gives a fuck?! Live your life the way u want to . . . to the pple who talk shit just walk away. Cuz those are the pple who have Low SeLf EsTeEm so they rag on you . . .deep down inside they wanna be u. Ha ! I'm exhausted 3 days straight of fucking. What a way to ring in the new year! ( Read more... )

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I've been felling down lately. . . I just feel sometimes that I need to leave a go out somewhere far away. I feel sufficated at home sometimes. Its not my Mami, Erica, LiL Don or Pablo. Its my father. He's so stuck on me staying home and not ever marrying and making a life for myself. He tells me to worry about that when he dies. To me thats crazy ( Read more... )

I'm so fucking tired of having to be the apologetic girlfriend. Like what the fuck is that? I'm not fucking rude to people. I'm not going to say fuck off when they tell me I look nice today. I'm so fucking tired of it. I politely say thank you end of story. But he acts like I just lead him on to think I'm gonna break up with him so I can run off ( Read more... )

I was just thinkin about how my best thoughts occur durin my daydreams to music like NIN or Genitorturers. Anything under that genre for that matter. They just stimulate this artistic sexual energy that excites me so. I love daydreaming. At five I discovered a way to daydream and pay attention to class lessons at the same time. At twelve I figured ( Read more... )

Well then I have made some type of prgress on my journal. The colors are what I wanted but I still need to work on how the html editing is used here. I'm learning thanks to the tutorials that are roved on the site. It's rainin . . usually I'm happy about that but today I'm not. I feel productive but lazy at the same time. Makes sense huh? Once ( Read more... )

So I'm ubber excited about having a journal online again ! Thanks Ms.Jones. Well this format really sucks so I need to get in touch with your methods here so I'll have a much more exciting lookin journal. Damn I love this fuckin cd. "Where is Everybody?" is my stripping song. Listenin to Trent u can feel your clothes just slip right off. Well then ( Read more... )