right now im talking to the girl stephanie i drive to sylvan learning center. im trying to keep the convo going so that she doesnt think im lame. yes, i do care what children think of me. she's a slow typer ( Read more... )

i feel so accomplished!!! yesterday and today i have focused almost solely on packing for Florida next week and i have done everything i can until like the day before (packing tooth brush, deodorant, that stuff). but i didnt pack the garment bag because i couldn't figure out how to put the dress in there...i have to ask my parents. i also have to ( Read more... )

today was such a beautiful day. i went outside and it was so nice. i haven't been outside for the whole day for a long time. i couldn't sleep again this morning and i reluctantly got up at 8am. i was wide awake! but i had a sore throat and sinus pressure. i wrote my english response (which im proud of myself for since i always procrastinate, but i ( Read more... )

last night i finished writing in my blue journal. i get emotionally attached to everything even if i dont intend to, and that book has all my sufferings since valentines day 03 when i got it. a few days before that was when mr fish and melissa saved my life by blowing the whistle on cutting and going without my meds and no therapy. so that book is ( Read more... )

im so excited-i learned how to make icons finally! (i just typed "icones"...) now i get to look at Johnny Rzeznik's hot face all the time! it's only fitting since my lj name is inspired partly by his black balloon song and partly by 99 red balloons which i had heard on that day i made this name. it was stuck in my head and i was like "hmmm....what ( Read more... )

ahhhhh! i cant figure out how to make my pictures small enough to be icons! the computer is counting the surrounding white space as part of the picture. it looks like it should be so easy! why is it so hard? i need help, or a different program. ill try that. its such torture! i have all these hot pictures of johnny rzeznik and no where to display ( Read more... )

i just realized i have only posted 3 times this year and all of them have been on saturdays...weird. anyways ( Read more... )

im back from my long-waited-for Florida trip with jamie, rachel, and jen. i had a great time but my stupid stomach problem came back off and on the first few days and then from weds or thurs until now its just been constant nausea all day long. its been so miserable. last night it felt the worst. and my doctor wasnt in today so i couldnt go see her ( Read more... )

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i havent written here for so long, not like anyone notices anyways. i feel like the only people who remember that i exist are my mental healthcare providers-dr saidel, nancy, and mrs. henry. i'm listening to K-PAX now because im addicting to it again since we are watching the movie in psychology now. i feel bad for melissa because she could never ( Read more... )