My LiveJournal 12 DaysMy True Love gave to me...12 doommonkeys a-milking.11 orange_eyes a-dialing.10 burningskyzs a-grinding.9 rivetchics a-writing.8 michaelhanss a-smiling.7 jane_elises a-rubbing.6 vendettazens a-breakdancing.5 light blue alikaslaters.4 giggling nunbois.3 Polish clairises.2 chinchilla noize_nazis.And a ladybug007 in a apple tree. ( Read more... )

anybody got any job leads?

fuck.
i have like 15 cents in my checking account, and 3 cents in my savings.

fuck christmas!

LA is a beast. it has to be beaten to move on. otherwise it just follows you. it will consume you if it isnt defeated. but you can't taste freedom with it still living in your system ( Read more... )

for any of the half dozen people trying to call me last night/ tonight (whatever it is at 5 in the morning), i am sorry for not answering or returning your calls. while my phone was getting full reception, and seeming to recieve all your calls, each time i tried to answer, i was getting no audio, only dead air ( Read more... )

Help me if you can ( Read more... )

Night after night, we pretend its all right
But I have grown older and
You have grown colder and
Nothing is very much fun any more.
And I can feel one of my turns coming on.
I feel cold as a razor blade,
Tight as a tourniquet,
Dry as a funeral drum.

in moments of solitude i find the depths of my own weakness, and the strength of my own resiliance. a moment where they both merge, and i know, that everything i have done was at least meaningful to myself, even if i never touched anyone else with my presence. this simple thought is all that is comforting me at the moment, when my self doubts are ( Read more... )

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fuck this. for one last time, i'll give myself effect. and you the benefit of the doubt.